[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2006-04-30
Written: (5218 days ago)

Stephy:



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Written about Sunday 2006-04-30
Written: (5218 days ago)

Gee. Thank you, stupid, used computer. You messed up my digital camera. Which means, this stupid computer has just ruined my day. And you know what? I don't even know why I bothered to get back online. Meh. Screw you all. Unless I actually like you. Other than that, fuck you. <3

And now the speakers aren't working. Fucking AWESOME. Son of a fucking WHORE.

...This is what I get for not taking my medication today, bitches. Hee. Fuckity fuck fuck FUCK.

I swear. I feel like throwing one of those stupid tantrums that the stupid little rich girls on that Sweet Sixteen show on MTV do all the time. Those WHORES need to be dropped down in South Central and shot at. :3

Ugh, had download MSN, YIM, and AIM all over again, too. And all my photos and such that I had on the other computer are now GONE. Unless my dad actually managaed to save them. *sighs*

Well, updates on school life and such. -->

Honors English:
I have managed to scrape in a low B for the time being. It can still go down, though. Especially with the debate. But I've become lazy as of late. Gah. But, other than that, we haven't been doing much. Mr. Vorwald backed off for a bit due to the AP Exam. Now I'm just worried about his class AFTER the exam is over with. *shudders*

Spanish I
Trying to figure out if I'm going to take two years of Spanish, two years and then AP Spanish in my senior year, or just three years of regular Spanish for Native Speakers. Very confused about that. Anyways, that F should have gone away by now. I've turned in all but...three assignments? Though I think I bombed NASTY on the last test. Great. </3

Lunch:
...I have to include this because I don't EAT at lunch. Nooo. I either have homework to finish in the library or a club meeting. And when I have nothing else to work on, I usually get dragged there to the library by someone else. @.@ Not the most pleasurable time of the day.

AP World History:
Had to go to school today. On a Saturday. From seven until noon. Why? Practice test. Stupid AP Exam is next week. *whimpers*And I barely scraped a passing grade on the practice test. XD Along with almost everyone else. I'm also thinking of taking AP U.S. History in my junior year. Yup, yup. Another AP Class for me. ^^

Computers:
...Catching up on work that I've missed due to leaving early.

Chyeah. Now I'm just trying to figure out which classes I'm gonna take later this year. Honors English, AP U.S History and AP Enviromental Science are just some of the classes I'm interested in. And possibly photography as well. Ah, well. I'll look into it during May. <3

Anyways, other than that, getting my glasses, and being sick and angry at people, that's about it. Adios. <3

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Written about Thursday 2006-04-27
Written: (5221 days ago)
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Computer broke.



So, I may only be on during my fourth block class: Computers.
Unless my dad manages to fix the computer or buy whatever is needed. So, I don't know how long that will take. One day? A week? A month? Dunno.

So, yeah. Other than that, I have a cold. More stress from school --> I have an F in two classes. So I'm going to be busy making up work and working on projects for other classes.

AP Exam next week.
Trip to Italy and Greece is now a maybe...with a question mark right next to it. Money issues.

Anyways, whatever. Bye. <3
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Written about Wednesday 2006-04-26
Written: (5222 days ago)

Chyeah. Disneyland fucking rocked. With an extra side of ohmygawd. :3

I got myself a Winnie the Pooh plushie and something for Shelby. <3 Gawd. That place costs too much.>.< So I couldn't get anything for Stacy, Tyler, Diane, or Jeanette. </3 I'll make it up to them. Especially Tyler and Stacy. <3

Though, I think Splashdown made me even more sick. @.@ I officially have a cold. And that damn ride caused me and my brother to become drenched. Likeohmygawdlotsandlots. XD Looked like I took a shower with my clothes on. Oo; And Peter looked like a penguin when he was walking. XD Fun, fun.

Mom and dad got on that Roger Rabbit ride on their own. I took all my siblings with me. XD Got dizzy. @.@ Lines tended to be less than half an hour. :3 But Disney's Mexican food SUCKED.>.< Icky, icky.

We went on Astro Blaster! Mother kicked all our arses. XD I was in...fourth place? >>; Chyeah. I sucked. But it was fun. XD

We went on Space Mountain and took Matthew with us. He liked it. X3 Indiana Jones was cool, too. >>;

Back to the Roger Rabbit thing: Almost had a heart attack. Thought I lost my camera. Scary. @.@ And, when my parents let my brother and sister play in some Tarzan jungle thingy, we couldn't find them. Dorks got out the wrong way and went back to where the stroller was.@.@ Chyeah. Freaked us out.>.<

Lots of randomness and such. :3

Got home at around nine. Even though we had planned on getting home at eight. There was a parade that kind of blocked the way out of the park. Well, more like ebil tourists.-.- Who think they own the fucking park.>.< So, my family and I ended up doing the same things they did to us.>> << Along with us saying, "Like, ohmygawd.">>;;; Yeah, we all had too much soda. XD And we were very annoyed. >>;

Anyways. School was dull. Missed alot, though. >< Ah well. I'll find a way to make everything up.>>;

Oh! I got the papers and such for the trip to Italy and Greece. X3 Just need my parents to sign and stuff. >>; Make it official. xD

Well. Learning HTML in computers.-.- Fun. So, I'm off. Ciao. <3

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Written about Monday 2006-04-24
Written: (5224 days ago)

So, like yeah. My home computer is being, like, such a drag. Like, ohmygawd. Stupid ghetto thing, needs to like, DIE. *giggles*

...This is what not eating does to you. o.o I ate a bit yesterday, but I felt sick and couldn't eat anymore. Parents made me eat more, though...seeing as I hadn't eaten all day yesterday. >>; Too sick and bitchy. >:3

Argh. Another guy claims that they "like" me. I dunno. I don't want to think about him too much. Or teenage relationships, either. If I do, I'll just end up tricking myself that I do like them, and after a while, I'll end up realizing that I don't really like them. In that way. >.< I believe that's what happened with whatshisface. Damn teenage years. I hate you. D:

*boogies!* My parents gave me their 95% yes on me going to Italy and Greece next year! ^^ The other 5% being that something could happen which will prevent me from going. But! I'll try not to think so much about it.

...You know which band I hate know? Green Day. Gahhh. They're getting on my nerves. >< I'm all 80's right now. And powerpop, new wave, pop punk. Fuck yeah. Anything that you can dance too! X3

Uh, yeah. May not be on tomorrow. Disneyland, bitches. Hopefully I can manage to buy a few things. Not for me, though. Just for Shelby, Stacy, and Tyler. And if I have enough money, for Jeanette and Diane, too. <3 Oh, and Chris and Bird. XD ...As you can tell, I won't have enough money.-.- *sighs*

Dan is ignoring me. XD Ah, goes to show how much men tend to be dogs. :3 I'm starring at girls alot. As of late. Shmexy. >>; But! Moving on. XD

Well, I'm off. Don't want to be on. That, and I have classwork to do. Ugh, stressed. Have lots and lots of work to do for school. >< Ah well. Adios.

Love you, Shelby!
My hawt wife. :3
*molests*>>;
Hee. Non-lesbian porn. XD


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Written about Sunday 2006-04-23
Written: (5225 days ago)

Long Way To Happy by P!NK



One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
781533  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-21
Written: (5227 days ago)

*smiles brightly*I got to come home early!
You wanna know whyyyy? *giggles*
I got really sick during second block. :3
Started trembling and sweating while I felt as if my blood had ran cold, had awful cramps that made me wanna cry...
And when lunch started, I went with Stacy to get something to eat, and by then, my vision got blurry and my knees were shaking and I felt faint. Also felt like I was going to throw up.
So, afterwards, I called my dad to pick me up.
Which he did.
So, now I'm here...

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Written about Friday 2006-04-21
Written: (5227 days ago)

Dan is with someone!
Should be happy for him, I guess...
But god, I wanna stop falling for people.
Fuck you all and good bye. <3

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Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (5227 days ago)

I feel like cutting again.
Eh, stupid temptation.
Stupid emoness. *stabs it* oo;
Having more thoughts of suicide.
And now I feel like crying.
And I was having such a good day, too. XD

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Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (5228 days ago)

Ashes, ashes, we all fall down!

*giggles*Eh, hyper. Listening to 80's music. Hell yeah, it's gangsta. X3

Some of them want to use you, some of them want to be used by you. Some of them want to abuse you, some of them want to be abused.

Nummeh. Kinky. XD

Not much homework for me today! :3 Stacy helped me with my Spanish homework during third, so now all I have to do is my history homework. And reading. But I can do that. Though, sadly, we have an essay to work on tomorrow for third. ><

Love shack, baby!



That song makes me giggle. X3

I did good on my introduction paragraph for resurrection as a theme. :3 I'm sho happy!

Oh, lots of projects for English to work on though. Fudge.

And...I'm making a wishlist. XD

Stephy's Wishlist.
*Shelby.
*Dan.
*More music for my MP3 player.
*More manga.
*Different colored eyeliner and nail polish.
*Stuffed animals.
*Anime DVD's
*Trip to Italy.
*Money.
*Clothes.
*A cat.
*A job.
*Less stress.


Yeah. >>; I'm odd. Well, off to finish my work for fourth period. Ciao!
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Written about Wednesday 2006-04-19
Written: (5229 days ago)
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Written about Wednesday 2006-04-19
Written: (5229 days ago)

Who's the girl behind the mask of "happiness"? <3



Why!
It's Stephanie.
She's the girl behind the mask.
Oh, what a pathetic girl. <3



Baby, at least I don't need love...


Steph, is a fucking idiot. Here's a song fit for her. </3



Simple Together by Alanis Morissette.



You've been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can't go to you for consolation
Cause we're off limits during this transition
This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And i can't stop bumping into things
I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But i was sadly mistaken
You've been my soulmate and mentor
I remembered you the moment i met you
With you i knew god's face was handsome
With you i suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And i can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But i was sadly mistaken
If i had a bill for all the philosophies i shared
If i had a penny for all the possibilities i presented
If i had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe
I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous togheter
But i was sadly mistaken
Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together
But i was sadly mistaken
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Written about Tuesday 2006-04-18
Written: (5230 days ago)
Next in thread: 780042

I think I'm in love...

With 80's music! :D


Feeling utterly exhausted right now.
Chyeah. Blood loss and not getting enough sleep probably does that to people.
Stupid Emo Steph. -.-
Oh, one more thing...
I'm getting glasses! :3
I look even more ugly with them. XD
Ah well...
Now I'm off to ignore the pain in my left arm and right leg due to my stupidity last night...
And try to get music into my mp3 player.
Ciao.
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Written about Tuesday 2006-04-18
Written: (5230 days ago)

Wonderful HP fanfiction that I'm reading. Here's a quote. <3



Frustration and self-loathing had Harry close to tears, but Draco would not take back the ring. Fingers numb from cold and desperation, the band slipped free to land soundlessly in the snow.

“Harry, listen. Do you not understand the meaning of the words ‘I love you’?”

Blank green eyes stared back at him. Draco sighed and slid the scarf from around his neck, tucking it between Harry’s head and the snow.

“Alright, listen up scar-head, and I’ll define it for you. It means that even though you may think you’re stupid and worthless and all that utter rubbish, to me you’re important for some strange reason. I guess you could say you’re precious to me, maybe even so much as vital. It means that as much as you cry or run away or break down, that I’m still going to be there to catch you, and help pick up the pieces again. It means that even when you feel like being a complete prat, or you want to punch me in the nose, I’ll just hold you down and kiss you until you realize just what a git you actually were and apologize properly. It means that if you do, in fact, decide you don’t want this,” Here he grabbed the fallen ring back up, along with a handful of snow, “Then you’ll probably need to tie me up, stuff me in a bag and chuck me into the Lake to ever be rid of me.”

Harry ♥ Draco. Squee.



Bit of a warning: Harry is a bit messed up in the head after he's raped in the first chapter. But I ♥ it oh so much. Especially all the cute moments. <3


http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1942098/1/





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Written about Monday 2006-04-17
Written: (5231 days ago)

Steph is such a pathetic wench. <3



Whore.
Loser.
Idiot.
Lost.
Lonely.
Confused.
Ill.
Heart broken...


Hee. Glazed donut, mango juice and Prozac don't go well. :3
I'm tired of this teenage heartache shit. Teenage love isn't real. Damnit, it isn't. Maybe if you're older than sixteen, but for the rest of us, I doubt it. Love for a friend, maybe. Love for family, of course. Love for someone in that way? Noooo. Love fades as fast as it comes. ^^

Argh. Spring Break SUCKED. So dull. Didn't get enough sleep. And meh. Ah well. Looking forward to summer, though. :D

Lookie:
Might paint my room turquoise.
Might go on a road trip.
Might get $500 for my birthday.
Might get three colors in my hair along with blonde.
Might go to Knotts Berry Farm with Stacy.
Might start wearing makeup. xD

Lots of might. oo;

Haaa.

Thinking of sending Dan a card for his birthday. ^^ Or something of the like. He's too glam. :3

Well, in computers. So yeah. Having an eye exam tomorrow, no homework today, though! ^^ So, whatever bitches.

I'm out.

Love to Shelby,Lexy, Sana, Blaise and Nicole. <3

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