Apparently I'm a masochist.....
and a Nympho.......
the rest of this week is going to be shit
Its Wednesday so i dont get to see James till friday. and on top of that my mom is telling my brothers(billy) gf(Suzy) that she needs to get out by friday since they both have lived with my mom and i for over 2 years. they had a baby together who is going to be a year on new years eve and she has a 4 year old son as well. So my house is a mess. everyone there mentioned lives here with us. now my brother is not agreeing on kicking Suzy out obviously so he is pitching a bitch about it. So basically I am not trying to be home Friday but i have nowhere to go. I'm trying to spend Friday night at James's house but he doesn't get home from school till three and i'd leave my house around 2 to take the bus and get there. so thats from 2 on friday till saturday gone but what about in the morning. ill have to be around for the war and thats not something i want to be involved in cause for once i am not apart of this. Uhgggggg idk. im getting stressed out about it.
whatever. hopefully all goes well. i have way too much on my plate. finals for college and home-life and Christmas coming up and i have NO money. UHGGGGGGG so frustrating so if you see my posting slowing down or changing slightly....yo
LOVE YOU JAMES!
1. What was the highlight of your week?
So far it's been with James. I love it when he just holds me and whispers sweetly in my ear.
2. Whose car were you in last, besides family?
Ummmm if i remember correctly it would be James's parents car
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
at around 3:00 when James gets off the bus and sees me standing at his front door.
4. What color shirt are you wearing?
5. How long is your hair?
6. Are you good looking?
Sorta kinda....James thinks i am.
7. Last movie you watched?
Ummmm hmmmm P.S. I Love You
8. Who were you with?
9. Last thing you ate?
10. Last thing you drank?
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
about a year ago. but that doesn't matter now.
12. Who came over last?
13. Are you happy right now?
id be happier in his arms
14. What did you say last?
15. Where is your phone?
Right beside me
16. What color are your eyes?
17. Are you left-handed?
18. Spell your name without vowels:
19. Do you have any pets?
Two cats, Raven and Guess, and a bunny, BooBoo.
20. Favorite Vacation?
21. What do you dislike currently?
Having to do this stupid computers project consisting of Excel, Powerpoint, and Word,....all do tomorrow.
22. What are you listening to?
atm 98 degrees but soon ill be putting on some All That Remains or BassHunter
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
24. What is your favorite scent?
James's cologne called Deisel
25. Who makes you happiest?
26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
27. When is your birthday?
28. Who has the same phone as you?
My brother Billy, his gf's ex, and my friend Grant. LMAO everyone has an Iphone these days
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
I believe it was like August
30. Do you read your horoscope?
Not the often
31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Hmmmmmmmm i have to think about that one......I guess WaWa when i bought cigarettes
32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Hate it....need it redyed and cut
33. Do you bite your nails?
35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
36. Myspace or facebook?
37. How fast have you driven a car?
I think like 25 or 35 seeing as how i don't drive
38. Whats something you like that you think most ppl dont?
Not quite sure really.....
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
40. Do you have Verizon?
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
well it used to be the gothicish boys that not many people liked....but now i love my ghetto metalhead gamer.
42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I'd like to think so
43. Favorite Song?
Too many to pick one
44. Do you like to sing at all?
All the time!
45. Dream Job?
Large Animal Veterinarian
46. Where does most of your family live?
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
Two older brothers
48. Do you love your parents?
Only my mother.
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
"Guta go talk to James" ^.^
50. Do you drink?
No. I hate alcohol
51. Know any other languages?
52. Ever write a coded message?
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
54. Do you have any children?
not that i know of. lmao altho James keeps saying he is pregnant. LMMFFAO
55. Did you take a nap today?
56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Many of my friends
57. Ever met anyone famous before?
i think so yea
58. Do you want to be famous one day?
59. Any Pet Peeves?
60. Are you multitasking right now?
61. Do you like Britany Spears?
she can still sorta sing....but i dont like her as a person
62. What is your least favorite chore?
63. Last place you drove your car?
64. Ever been out of the country?
65. Where were you born?
On a bed In a room in a hospital in a town in a city in a county in a state in a country in a world in a universe.....o
66. Could you handle being in the military?
No fucking way
67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Don't know....my mom deals with that
68. Who are you thinking about right now?
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Last night when James put on my tight jeans. I almost fell off the bed laughing so hard.
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Way too many
71. Are your toes always painted?
72. How many piercings do you have?
Ears, eyebrow, belly button
73. What are you doing today?
Doing my project for computers class and than taking the bus to see James
74. Have you ever been gambling?
75. When is the last time you updated your page?
i think a few weeks ago
76. Do you like rollercoasters
77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
MY CAPTAIN TOSHIRO HITSUGAYA!!!!!
79. Last thing you cooked?
80. How's the weather?
Cold and windy
81. Do you e-mail?
only my professors
82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Ummmmmmmmmmmmm dropped it while at work and broke the screen....stup
83. Last time you were sick?
ummmm right now
85. Do you wish you could move?
86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
87. What is your dream car?
Metallic Blue 2005 Chevy Cobalt SS Super-chargere
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
yes a very very long time ago
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
In James's arms.
90. Are you happy with your life?
I'm feeling the weight of a possible breakup to come. I don't want to lose him. I CAN'T lose him. He is the reason I breath my every breath and he is every beat of my heart. He is every cell in my body and every organism not. He is the entire world, the ground I walk on, the water i drink, the food i eat, and the animals i love. He is it all. All I ever see is him and all i ever think is him. all the words that come from my mouth are about him or based off of him. My every day life revolves entirely around him. I wake early in the morning to speak to him and try to pass time when I can't see or talk to him. I actually pay attention in classes so I can get out of there sooner so i can sleep till i see him or somehow occupy myself. I sleep in on weekends till he comes to my side and i stay up late and rise early when he sleeps by my side. I find myself waking often when he is sleeping with me so i can just simply look at his face. I will drop everything for him. I find myself waking from the dead of sleep to hold him and look deep into his eyes until i fall asleep again. I would run a hundred miles just to be able to simply hold his hand. His kisses send me into space and his hugs make me cry not from sadness but from joy. Im glad to have a man like him in my life. a true one of a kind. he thinks of himself as good for nothing and not worth a thing but to me, i feel like an tiny flea compared to him. He is the vast world and i am a tiny microscopic organism fighting to live another night in the wholeness of him. I love my James so entirely that it's painful. I cry at the thought of him walking away and never turning back. I want to die at the thought of him gone. Even when he leaves me alone at night standing on my doorstep watching him and his father drive away, my chest starts to hurt and I want to curl in a ball and die until he is by my side again. I'd hate to compare this true devotional love to something as what seems to be lame as twilight but I really am Bella and he is my Edward. Wholly and entirely he is my life. I would want to spend eternity and infinity with him if I possibly could. But for now, i want to grow old with him, i want to have his children and bare his last name. I want all of it. I wish he wants it too. I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him
I can't seem to say it enough.
Fun weekend i had! too long to tell. i know noone really cares. lmao if ya wana no the details just PM me...im too tired to type it all. I tried it before but facebook likes to be an asshole and when someone messages me i cant type on anything else but that message. So i went to hit backspace for something in my diary and yea...that didn't work. it went to the previous page. UHGGGGGGG got me so mad cuz i was almost done and everyone knows that i type alot when i give an update. shit im typing a lot now. ok....but anyways.....li
cant wait for christmas...i still need the money for all the gifts i want to buy but........oh well...lets see how i pull it off this year.
night all. see ya some other time. teehee
Seeing New Moon today with my awesomeness bf James and possibly my friend Grant. ^.^
I LOVELZ MY JACOB BLACK
IT'S ALMOST DONNNNEEEEEEEE
An Immortal's Quest
Check it out, fan it, invite, PLEASE?
ok so i started making the RP now. I am keeping with what my dream was which is in the post below. If you see interest in it please feel free to join.
An Immortal's Quest
It is still under construction. Give me some time. I will have it all together soon.
ok so last night i had a dream. yes i admit it was a little weird but it was longer than what i will explain.
There were two Gods who were infact brothers. Their names were Damion and Gabriel(Or Nemamiah).Side note: I did research on Angelic names and Nemamiah is the Angel of Just Causes which is the best fit for this story but Gabriel is much easier to remember and just as Angelic.
Damion and Gabriel(Nemamiah) were twins who were always competing against eachother. One day, Damion came up with a game. It was a competition on who could kill the human first. Two small humans came around one day falling part of Damion's game. Gabriel(Nemamiah) at first seemed into it but was really holding back so he would not kill these innocent mortals. Damion killed the human and became angered with his brother for not truly playing the game. The twins dueled in an epic battle. Gabriel threw Damion to the ground. Damion looked at his twin and said "Why my dear brother, do you hate me so?" in which Gabriel(Nemamiah) replied, "Because, brother, you kill for joy and fun. I vow that from here forward you will be silenced and mortal until a mortal woman admits her love for you." With that said, Gabriel(Nemamiah) waved his hand muting his brother and taking away his immortality.
Damion was now to roam the earth searching for the ONE and only ONE mortal that would confess their love for him. His main task was to do it with no words.
1. Smoked a cigarette: yes
2. Smoked a cigar: yes
3. Snorted coke: no
4. Smoked Weed: yes
5. Been high: yes
6. Had sex: yes
7. Said "I hope you die" to someone: yes
8. Tried to kill someone: no
9. Tried to kill yourself: yes
10. Got in a fist fight: yes
11. Lied to your parents: yes
12. Given someone a bruise: yes
13. Ditched someone: yes
14. Freak danced: yes
15. Stole something: yes
16. Cut yourself: yes
17. Skipped school: yes
18. Hung up on someone: yes
19. Threw up at school: yes
20. Done someone elses make-up: yes
21. Kissed someone of the same sex: yes
22. Had a burping contest: yes
23. Snuck out: yes
24. Been to a school dance: yes
25. Thought your teacher was hot: yes
WOW! THATS SAD! :(
Went and saw KISS last night. Entirely FREE! I got a call around 6 from my brother's navy buddy who i talk to who invited me to KISS and i said yea...and than he invited my bf which is good cuz i wouldn't go without him. So i found out the concert started at 7:30 and it was 6:15. Yea....me...a women....i run around frantic like a chicken with it's head cut off. ha. Well James and I finally get picked up at around 6:30/6:45 and we go to his house so he can get changed(What a priss. jk) he was wearing 'nice' clothes and there WOULD be alcohol everywhere soo...yea so finally he is ready at almost 7:00 and we have to drive 20 or so min to the spectrum. We get there and luckily Nick(The guy with the tix) saw us before he went in or else we would have to find Willcall and pick them up. *shrugs* we originally had NOSEBLEED seats....liter
Hey everyone sorry im not on much. Thats what happens when little ol' me gets a bf. well yea....if you couldn't tell by my pics and new pic wiki...im sooooo unbelievable happy with him that im like...never on much. SORRY! i promise that when i finally get the time i will be back on. Ill check in every once and awhile to check messages and maybe post in an RP or two but....sorry i wont be here much. I love you all dearly and i will be back soon.