ok so life has been REALLLLYYYYYY hectic. james and i broke up for about like 2 or 3 hours. it tore me apart so much that i seriously contimplated suicide. that was the reason or our next fight. He's aloud to punch walls, walk and hour to my house in cold weather and punch car mirrors getting SEVERAL cuts on his knuckles... but im not allowed to take a pair of scissors and make the tiniest scrap on my foot(Didn't even break the skin). But than he's allowed to take his pocket knife(Really big and sharp) and press it against his wrist finding the vein trying to die. Uhg. but we fixed that and a few days later we celebrated 5 months. it's now been 5 months and 4 days. i love him! I decided that i WILL give him the promise ring for 6 months/valenti
everyone i promise i will be on tomorrow and i will update all of the pages once i get on. and An Immortal's Quest i will start up tomorrow so everyone be ready.
Been trying to finish up the Taiwanese version of Boys Over Flowers. (Hana Yori Dango in Japanese) Guna be a bit before i finish the series so i wont be on much until its done. Sorry everyone.
Sorry I've been gone everyone. I've been so busy with the holidays. I've spent every day of the holiday vacation with my boyfriend. I havn't had a day without him yet therefore was unable to get onto ET. I'm only on for a few minutes now to check up on what i can quickly. i will be on more tomorrow when James starts school again and I will be stuck at home...that is after i apply for jobs and finish watching all of "The Crow" movies. *shrugs* send me messages. I miss you all dearly.
GOT A LAPTOP! SITTING ON IT NOW!
Ok so christmas is coming up in just a few more days. I have no gifts for anyone except James. I still need to get something for my brother, his girlfriend, their two kids, and my mother. Oh fuck. Ok so i have NO money. I owe my mom $60.00 for my boyfriend's gift. I'm planning on just painting my mom her favorite football team logo.
I have all the supplies needed...i just need the time to do it. And every time i attempt drawing that i fail. Uhg. it's frustrating since i only have today and tomorrow to be able to do it. So don't expect to find me on much. and than on top of that i cant buy my brother or his gf anything. they both know i have no money so they may understand that i cant buy them anything but than it makes me feel like shit cuz i bought my boyfriend a $65 gift and them nothing. I just don't know what to do. *sigh* don't expect me on too much. i need to find out what to wear to James's family dinner on Christmas day(they are also a diff religion than i am) and what to wear to my own family gathering on Christmas Eve and help James pick out something for both days for the same gatherings....
also....im massively cleaning since the Eve Party is at my house. FUCKING A! Wish me luck all....be on when I can.
LOVE YOU ALL!
LOVE YOU JAMES S.!
<3 Kittie <3
Ok so as far as i know, i am done Computers and i failed that class. :( it was actually quite difficult. and than Painting class is also done and from what i know, i passed that. ^.^ Also my teacher took 4 of my paintings to submit them in the art gallery. It's so exciting. The Gallery will be from September-arou
ok enough of that class. Today I have Government(I'm pretty sure i do) and I will be taking the last test in that class which isn't a final, instead it's just a chapter test. Thank god. I didn't do any of the essays but i will talk to my teacher and see if i can email them to him either tonight or tomorrow.
And than tonight i take the final for Western Civilization II. That may actually be tough. I have to write 2 quick paragraphs on two of the 8 topics she gave us, memorize those 2 and than rewrite them for the final. UHGGGGG. I may be slick and type them onto my Iphone and copy that......:/ i'm not very good at memorizing things.
well wish me luck. after today i am fully done classes until next fall. I'm taking a little while off. well......chee
<3 Toshi-chan <3
Apparently I'm a masochist.....
and a Nympho.......
the rest of this week is going to be shit
Its Wednesday so i dont get to see James till friday. and on top of that my mom is telling my brothers(billy) gf(Suzy) that she needs to get out by friday since they both have lived with my mom and i for over 2 years. they had a baby together who is going to be a year on new years eve and she has a 4 year old son as well. So my house is a mess. everyone there mentioned lives here with us. now my brother is not agreeing on kicking Suzy out obviously so he is pitching a bitch about it. So basically I am not trying to be home Friday but i have nowhere to go. I'm trying to spend Friday night at James's house but he doesn't get home from school till three and i'd leave my house around 2 to take the bus and get there. so thats from 2 on friday till saturday gone but what about in the morning. ill have to be around for the war and thats not something i want to be involved in cause for once i am not apart of this. Uhgggggg idk. im getting stressed out about it.
whatever. hopefully all goes well. i have way too much on my plate. finals for college and home-life and Christmas coming up and i have NO money. UHGGGGGGG so frustrating so if you see my posting slowing down or changing slightly....yo
LOVE YOU JAMES!
1. What was the highlight of your week?
So far it's been with James. I love it when he just holds me and whispers sweetly in my ear.
2. Whose car were you in last, besides family?
Ummmm if i remember correctly it would be James's parents car
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
at around 3:00 when James gets off the bus and sees me standing at his front door.
4. What color shirt are you wearing?
5. How long is your hair?
6. Are you good looking?
Sorta kinda....James thinks i am.
7. Last movie you watched?
Ummmm hmmmm P.S. I Love You
8. Who were you with?
9. Last thing you ate?
10. Last thing you drank?
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
about a year ago. but that doesn't matter now.
12. Who came over last?
13. Are you happy right now?
id be happier in his arms
14. What did you say last?
15. Where is your phone?
Right beside me
16. What color are your eyes?
17. Are you left-handed?
18. Spell your name without vowels:
19. Do you have any pets?
Two cats, Raven and Guess, and a bunny, BooBoo.
20. Favorite Vacation?
21. What do you dislike currently?
Having to do this stupid computers project consisting of Excel, Powerpoint, and Word,....all do tomorrow.
22. What are you listening to?
atm 98 degrees but soon ill be putting on some All That Remains or BassHunter
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
24. What is your favorite scent?
James's cologne called Deisel
25. Who makes you happiest?
26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
27. When is your birthday?
28. Who has the same phone as you?
My brother Billy, his gf's ex, and my friend Grant. LMAO everyone has an Iphone these days
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
I believe it was like August
30. Do you read your horoscope?
Not the often
31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Hmmmmmmmm i have to think about that one......I guess WaWa when i bought cigarettes
32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Hate it....need it redyed and cut
33. Do you bite your nails?
35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
36. Myspace or facebook?
37. How fast have you driven a car?
I think like 25 or 35 seeing as how i don't drive
38. Whats something you like that you think most ppl dont?
Not quite sure really.....
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
40. Do you have Verizon?
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
well it used to be the gothicish boys that not many people liked....but now i love my ghetto metalhead gamer.
42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I'd like to think so
43. Favorite Song?
Too many to pick one
44. Do you like to sing at all?
All the time!
45. Dream Job?
Large Animal Veterinarian
46. Where does most of your family live?
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
Two older brothers
48. Do you love your parents?
Only my mother.
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
"Guta go talk to James" ^.^
50. Do you drink?
No. I hate alcohol
51. Know any other languages?
52. Ever write a coded message?
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
54. Do you have any children?
not that i know of. lmao altho James keeps saying he is pregnant. LMMFFAO
55. Did you take a nap today?
56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Many of my friends
57. Ever met anyone famous before?
i think so yea
58. Do you want to be famous one day?
59. Any Pet Peeves?
60. Are you multitasking right now?
61. Do you like Britany Spears?
she can still sorta sing....but i dont like her as a person
62. What is your least favorite chore?
63. Last place you drove your car?
64. Ever been out of the country?
65. Where were you born?
On a bed In a room in a hospital in a town in a city in a county in a state in a country in a world in a universe.....o
66. Could you handle being in the military?
No fucking way
67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Don't know....my mom deals with that
68. Who are you thinking about right now?
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Last night when James put on my tight jeans. I almost fell off the bed laughing so hard.
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Way too many
71. Are your toes always painted?
72. How many piercings do you have?
Ears, eyebrow, belly button
73. What are you doing today?
Doing my project for computers class and than taking the bus to see James
74. Have you ever been gambling?
75. When is the last time you updated your page?
i think a few weeks ago
76. Do you like rollercoasters
77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
MY CAPTAIN TOSHIRO HITSUGAYA!!!!!
79. Last thing you cooked?
80. How's the weather?
Cold and windy
81. Do you e-mail?
only my professors
82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Ummmmmmmmmmmmm dropped it while at work and broke the screen....stup
83. Last time you were sick?
ummmm right now
85. Do you wish you could move?
86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
87. What is your dream car?
Metallic Blue 2005 Chevy Cobalt SS Super-chargere
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
yes a very very long time ago
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
In James's arms.
90. Are you happy with your life?
I'm feeling the weight of a possible breakup to come. I don't want to lose him. I CAN'T lose him. He is the reason I breath my every breath and he is every beat of my heart. He is every cell in my body and every organism not. He is the entire world, the ground I walk on, the water i drink, the food i eat, and the animals i love. He is it all. All I ever see is him and all i ever think is him. all the words that come from my mouth are about him or based off of him. My every day life revolves entirely around him. I wake early in the morning to speak to him and try to pass time when I can't see or talk to him. I actually pay attention in classes so I can get out of there sooner so i can sleep till i see him or somehow occupy myself. I sleep in on weekends till he comes to my side and i stay up late and rise early when he sleeps by my side. I find myself waking often when he is sleeping with me so i can just simply look at his face. I will drop everything for him. I find myself waking from the dead of sleep to hold him and look deep into his eyes until i fall asleep again. I would run a hundred miles just to be able to simply hold his hand. His kisses send me into space and his hugs make me cry not from sadness but from joy. Im glad to have a man like him in my life. a true one of a kind. he thinks of himself as good for nothing and not worth a thing but to me, i feel like an tiny flea compared to him. He is the vast world and i am a tiny microscopic organism fighting to live another night in the wholeness of him. I love my James so entirely that it's painful. I cry at the thought of him walking away and never turning back. I want to die at the thought of him gone. Even when he leaves me alone at night standing on my doorstep watching him and his father drive away, my chest starts to hurt and I want to curl in a ball and die until he is by my side again. I'd hate to compare this true devotional love to something as what seems to be lame as twilight but I really am Bella and he is my Edward. Wholly and entirely he is my life. I would want to spend eternity and infinity with him if I possibly could. But for now, i want to grow old with him, i want to have his children and bare his last name. I want all of it. I wish he wants it too. I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him
I can't seem to say it enough.
Fun weekend i had! too long to tell. i know noone really cares. lmao if ya wana no the details just PM me...im too tired to type it all. I tried it before but facebook likes to be an asshole and when someone messages me i cant type on anything else but that message. So i went to hit backspace for something in my diary and yea...that didn't work. it went to the previous page. UHGGGGGGG got me so mad cuz i was almost done and everyone knows that i type alot when i give an update. shit im typing a lot now. ok....but anyways.....li
cant wait for christmas...i still need the money for all the gifts i want to buy but........oh well...lets see how i pull it off this year.
night all. see ya some other time. teehee
Seeing New Moon today with my awesomeness bf James and possibly my friend Grant. ^.^
I LOVELZ MY JACOB BLACK