[Daemeon Arkenyon Zane]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2006-02-09
Written: (5292 days ago)

Girl Like That-Matchbox 20
you think this life would make me bolder
but I’m running scared is all
I hang on everything about you
you think I’d settle down cuz I’m older
but I roll with the changes is all
I’m same old trailer trash in new shoes

she gets sad when there’s nothing going on
she says it makes her feel damn worthless

(chorus 1)
well you got to think with a girl like that
any love at all, is better than nothing
it’s better than nothing

I put my hands around your shoulder
you’re saying you’re scared is all
I think I know too much about you
you think this life would make me colder
I’d give in to the alcohol
I put my loving arms around you, child

you knew damn well there was nothing going on
is that what makes you feel damn worthless

(chorus 2)
well you got to think with a girl like that
any love is better than nothing
it’s better than nothing
you got to think, with a girl like that
any love at all, is better than nothing
it’s better than nothing

yeah she drags you down and she pulls you up
she pulls you up
says that she’s sorry now but it’s not enough
to pull you up
she’s sorry

I wake up quick just like I want to
yeah but I stay out much too late
you think this life can get a bit unkind but she stays
down till the worth is gone
and pulls you up, she pulls you up,
she pulls you up and over, over

(chorus 2)

(chorus 1)

745727  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-02-08
Written: (5293 days ago)

Well, world, I have arrived in a time and place where everything seems to fall together perfectly... Getting the proper papers together for an ID... Getting everything set to get a passport when my ID goes thru... these are the things that, like a master key, will open the doors of my future... Money, too, of course, but not as much as I would like... I may take up a class in locksmithing :P *Note: I was once arrested, and spent time in jail for, burglar of a business... so if i do get training as a locksmith, it would be most ironic... :P Well, i do have to say that I am running out of computer time, so I'll cut this thing short...

Without you I'm broken,
Shattered on the floor...
Hearing words unspoken
as you walk out of the door...

I cry myself to sleep at night
Wond'ring if you'll hear...
I will only be alright
The moment i have you here...

-just a little poetry to take this thing out... love to you all, and thank you for always being there, all of you... though one above all others has been there the most, and you know who you are ;)

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Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (5309 days ago)

Hey cruel world, how are you all??? :P I'm sitting in a homeless youth center, watching a bunch of people go insane.... sounds like a large group of me's :P I went to some of the places most folks my age go.... clubs, bars, party spots.... and nothing happened but headeaches... no drunks, no buzzes, just headaches... so theres something i have to say: I LOOOOOOOOVE YOU ALLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P

733924  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-01-17
Written: (5315 days ago)
Next in thread: 734238

Hullo again, everyone... i will be trying to get online as much as possible for the next little while... I am working on doing quite a lot of things, and i really just havent had much time to be online....
Some of you have asked me why i decided to pick back up and travel: its a sort of long story, but to make it short, i had to go..... thats about it... and i wont stop until ive made it somewhere where i can settle down and live happily....
Been having some fucked up dreams lately.... they are so filled with love, and joy... so much so that i rarely want to even wake up.... i just want to sleep, and stay in my dreams... at least there i feel loved... the faces of my loved ones(in my dreams mind you) change, ans do names, but the overwhelming love and happiness stay the same... i just wish my real life could echo my dreams... some of you here have known me for quite awhile... others, not so long... but all of you, I'm sure, have seen just how hard it is for me to keep a relationship going... and long distance ones are even worse... but nevertheless, the heart wants what the heart wants.... amd i just want to not be lonely anymore.... i want to be loved.... settle down, get a successful job, a decent house... maybe even go for that wife and kids family thing.... it does sound appealing.....
Well, its time for me to go... Hugs to al, kisses to some, and have a lot of fun..... just think of me... and never ever forget that you all have a friend, and confidant, in me... no matter how long it takes me to get back online, i will be here for anyone who asks.... <3 Dave

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-12
Written: (5320 days ago)

hullo all... sorry about the lapse in log-in's... but ive been a very busy and devious little fellow.... i'm travelling, and thats about it right now... for all who worry, i'm alright... message me... i'll get it eventually...

Love to all....
Dave

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Written about Saturday 2005-12-17
Written: (5346 days ago)

The world i'm in is turning extremely topsy-turvy... i wont be getting on very often, until this passes... Adieu, my friends and loved ones, adieu until i come again... I love you all, in my own weird way... and no two people in quite the same way... with that said, i will be coming back to ET, i just dont know when... i am with you all...

Daemeon Arkenyon Zane
AKA
Dave
AKa
Caranquare....

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Written about Thursday 2005-12-08
Written: (5355 days ago)

So i went for a job at Burger King... bloody pieces of shit lied again... "Come back on Thursday, at 2:00pm, and see the general manager... theres a few openings, and we could use the help...." Only the GM says: "We arent hiring right now, but I AM taking applications... we might get back to you in thirty days or so...." Stupid tramp.... And her name is Charity... how oxymoronic...

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Written about Saturday 2005-12-03
Written: (5360 days ago)
Next in thread: 709385

Exctasy (In The Color Green)

That peaceful feeling
As the weed flows through me...
That calming buzz i get
When I take a few hits,
It's exctasy, you see...
Exctasy in the color green...

That wonderful high
as troubles slip from my mind....
That calmness, i need...
when i smoke my weed...
My tangible exctasy...
Exctasy in the color green...

As I'm comin' round...
My mind starts coming down...
And the buzz I'd got
From smokin pot...
That was excatsy...
Exctasy...in the color green

696471  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-11-10
Written: (5383 days ago)

Мир действительно падал вокруг меня, и ни один не может видеть это, но меня. Маска, которую я ношу на мое лицо, более непрозрачна чем когда-либо. Моя выпуклость эмоций, и падение, и ничто в этой жизни (или следующий) могут заменить это. Я - действительно отвращение; обреченный человек, посланный Ангелами Ада непосредственно, чтобы знать никакое счастье в этой жизни....

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Written about Sunday 2005-11-06
Written: (5387 days ago)

O, chì, chì mi na mòrbheanna,
O, chì, chì mi na còrr-bheanna,
O, chì, chì mi na coireachan,
Chì mi na sgòran fo cheò.

Chì mi gun dàil an t-àite 's an d'rugadh mi,
Cuirear orm fàilte 's a' chànain a thuigeas mi,
Gheibh mi ann aoigh agus gràdh 'nuair a ruigeam,
Nach reicinn air tunnachan òir.

Chì mi na coilltean, chì mi na doireachan,
Chì mi na maghan bàna, as toraiche,
Chì mi na féidh air làr nan coireachan
Falaicht' ann an trusgan de cheò.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-11-02
Written: (5391 days ago)

Landing In London- 3 Doors Down

I woke up today in London
As the plane was touching down
And all I could think about was monday
And maybe ill be back around

If this keeps me away much longer
I dont know what i will do
Youve got to understand its a hard life
That im going through

And when the night falls in around me
I dont think ill make it through
Ill use your light to guide the way
Cause all I think about is you

Well L.A is getting kinda crazy
And New york is getting kinda cold
I keep my head from geting lazy
I just cant wait to get back home

And all these days i spend away
Ill make up for this i swear
I need your love to hold me up
When its all too much to bear

And when the night falls in around me
I dont think ill make it through
Ill use your light to guide the way
Cause all I think about is you

And all these days i spend away
Ill make up for this i swear
I need your love to hold me up
When its all too much to bear

When the night falls in around me
I dont think ill make it through
Ill use your light to guide the way
Cause all I think about is you

679217  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-10-09
Written: (5415 days ago)

The urge to create, to make something from nothing, is an instictual urge. Human beings see this most often in the urge to procreate, to have sex... but also in our art, whether it be drawing, writing, construction... all the time we are creating... but also destroying... we fear things, sometimes, when we cannot understand them. Yet surely some can understand things like Wicca (not the Olde Religion, Fluffs, but true Wicca), and other religions... something asked of us to believe entirely on faith... can you do it? is it really that hard? believe me, you can, and you will... its life...

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-05
Written: (5419 days ago)

Jeebus(NOT JESUS) and a disciple were wallowing in the mud of a sty in the middle of Jerusalem. Jeebus had been preaching the word of Dog(NOT GOD) all day, and decided to wallow in the mud. His disciple, Ringo(Not a reference to john paul, or matthew of the bible, but a beatles reference), had gone in with him, so as to protect him... Jeebus was then removed from the sty by Ringo, and shown to the people of Jerusalem: "People, look at your Jeebus now, how he is dirty, from wallowing in mud! Look, his whitest robe is now his darkest, and you see the many stains upon his very person!" Then Jeebus was pissed on by Dog, and he was clean. Hoo rah for dog piss...

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-05
Written: (5419 days ago)

If you had me alone, locked up in your room for 24 hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? Answer this diary and repost it in yours. You might be surprised with the responses you get.

I stole this from [Today, McFly.], who stole it from [kavik]'s diary, but only because it says i can...

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Written about Tuesday 2005-10-04
Written: (5420 days ago)

There will be a day,
When all of life just slips away...
And no matter what you do...
Life just spins away from you...

And you wonder
(where the hell reality went...)
And you cry
(Cuz you feel your life's been spent)
And you wish
(That all this shit would go away)
And you die
(Cuz your life just ended today...)


A song I'm working on.... enjoy

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Written about Thursday 2005-09-22
Written: (5432 days ago)
Next in thread: 670891

The Archpoet: His Confession

Seething over inwardly
With fierce indignation,
In my bitterness of soul,
hear my decleration.
I am of one element,
Levity my matter,
Like enough a withered leaf
For the winds to scatter.

Since it is the property
Of the sapient
To sit firm upon a rock,
It is evident
That I am a fool, since I
Am a flowing river,
Never under the same sky,
Transient forever.

Hither, thither, masterless,
Ship upon the sea,
Wandering through the ways of air,
Go the birds like me.
Bound am i by ne'er a bond,
Prisoner to no key,
Questing go I for my kind,
Find deprevity.

A portion of a poem by the Archpoet, in the late 1100's. It suits me well, methinks...

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Written about Monday 2005-08-15
Written: (5470 days ago)
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Where does it end? How many times do I have to wake up in a cold sweat wondering when I'll finally get caught, or when I'll finally get away? How many times do I have to [wipe the slate clean before I finally succeed]? When will the hell and the torture finally pay off? [And where is she when i need her the most?] Almost, it seems, a world away... I love you...

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Written about Thursday 2005-07-21
Written: (5495 days ago)
Next in thread: 700479

Hello and goodbye everyone... this is a message to let you know im still here and alive, but no longer dave... my new name is john :P so live it love it, and learn it folks..... i mean it :P

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Written about Thursday 2005-06-16
Written: (5530 days ago)

still around...... dont know why, but i am....... wish i could just disappear......

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