Okay so honestly I joined this thing because a guy suggested it to me, and mostly so I can stay in contact with him. He's coming over this afternoon for a little tet-e-tet with my fiance. James, my fiance, decided he wanted to make some guidelines about how much physical contact is allowed between me and said person. I'm nervous but excited. Afterwards, while James is at work, I'll be able to test my new limitations. I plan on having Belial help me die my hair, that way it'll be easier to keep his hands off of me...well at least the places he can't touch. :)
I'm glad James is open about the whole thing. I really like flirting with and teasing Belial, but I'd hate to mess things up with James. I'm going to make a stew for dinner tonight, with the intentions of flaunting my cooking prowess. I'm such a wanton flatterer. I want so badly for everyone to like me. I know that I'm writing this for a lot of people to see, but as it is a diary, I don't want to hedge when it comes to true intraspection.
Alright, so this is my first diary entry in a while, first ever on elftown. I've realized lately that even if you believe the journey is more important than the destination, you still have to have a destination in mind. Lately I've been wandering and traveling for the sake of traveling. I have a preconceived notion of where every person's journey is supposed to take them, but I don't know that if I was given a concious decision if I would have chosen the same path.
Sure I've seen those who followed a less conventional dogma for life, but in essence, their lives turned out the same. There just isn't enough time to live all the lives that one can craft for oneself. I can never reach my full potential in any of my options because I'm always distracted by all the possibilities that life has to offer.
Sorry to start my diary on such a pretentious note, but this is a concept that's been bothering me lately and it does feel good to express it without having to worry about someone giving me unwelcome commentary. *co(jessie)ugh*