[Blaze the Nameless]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (5516 days ago)

Okay, so we only have one day of school left and stuff so we're all doing stuff we're normally not allowed to do like listen to music on our headphones and play Gameboys. Well, we were watching DVD's on Ted's DVD player that he brought to school. You see, at least five different teachers came over and asked what we were doing so we told them we were just watching with a DVD. They thought it was cool and it was okay with them so they just left. However, this one woman who had been watching us for a while finally came over while we were watching my La Nouba DVD and asked what we were doing. I thought she was going to be like the others but boy was I wrong! She told Ted he had to take it his administrator and see if it was okay to use! Okay, so we'll like "Mrs. Gibbs is cool, she'll let him off the hook." Turns out she wasn't there so the teacher ended up taking it away from him and now, his parents have to come to the school and file a complaint! We were all so pissed! Not only could we not finish watching our DVD but she did something she couldn't do! I mean for one, if it wasn't allowed to be here, a teacher would have taken it up already and it wasn't like we were watching porn or nothing. (I mean, we wouldn't sink that low! That's disgusting!) I mean, I was going to go and show her what we were watching. I mean, it's a circus! Come on! It wasn't even rated meaning that anyone could view it! What really gets me is the teacher that took it was voted teacher of the year! Now that's a laugh!

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Written about Wednesday 2005-05-25
Written: (5518 days ago)

Forever Weak
05-24-05

It’s not my fault I can’t climb
The highest mountain peak
It’s not my fault I can’t scream
Or that I can’t publicly speak
I cannot run fast enough
I can’t even jump high
I’m nothing compared to nothing
So all I can do is cry
I’m a weakling with no backbone
I have no guts or spine
I can’t stare a buzzard in the face
I can’t stand still on a perfect line
If you point out my faults I will admit them
Call me stupid and I’ll say that’s true
Shout the word ‘Ugly’ and I’ll turn around
These things are nothing new
I wish to be strong but I can’t be
I give up way to easily
So forever I will stay this way
Small, timid and weak little me

This is really how I feel. I am weak. I don't not deny it.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-04-26
Written: (5547 days ago)

Okay guys. I am EXTREMELY sorry about not being on for so long. The people working on our road thought it was an 'okay' idea to run over our phone line so I'm stuck using the school's computers! Hopefully, our net will be up by tomorrow.

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Written about Monday 2005-01-31
Written: (5631 days ago)
Next in thread: 485909

Amelia, I know you're angry at me and I am sorry. I was mad at you. I know I should have tried to talk to you but for some reason i just didn't. You'll probaly never talk to me again and I'll me be sad because I am loosing on my great friends.

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus


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Written about Sunday 2005-01-16
Written: (5646 days ago)

I FOUND THE PERFECT PICTURE OF MY FUTURE HUSBAND!



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He's name is Iouri Maiorov. He preforms in La Nouba and he is the most handsome thing to ever fly in the sky! *sighs*
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Written about Saturday 2005-01-15
Written: (5647 days ago)

I LOVE MY QUIDAM SOUNDTRACK!

Its loaded with extra features! If you put it into the computer, you get to see all these really cool things like pictures and some clips. There's also an interview with the man who directed it. I love this show and i wann see it soooooooooooooo badly!

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Written about Tuesday 2004-11-23
Written: (5700 days ago)

Finally! We've reached Orlando! Here I am typing on my aunt's computer. The net is a bit slow but it will do just fine for now! I am happyliy counting down the days until La Nouba. Only three short days! I can't wait, I can't wait, I JUST CAN'T WAIT!

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Written about Wednesday 2004-11-17
Written: (5706 days ago)
Next in thread: 416457, 417249, 417250

If you can tell by my mood, I was harrased by jackass hicks at my school again! Gunner said:

1. No one would want to go out with a girl who looked like a guy.

2. No guy will ever go out with me.

3. No guy will ever marry me.

He's such a jerk! i hope he dies and I hate him! Why does he have to be so mean to me?

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Written about Wednesday 2004-09-15
Written: (5769 days ago)

Currently Playing
Severe Tire Damage
By They Might Be Giants
see related
- Birdhouse in your Soul
GAH! Today is not my day at all! 

Okay, first of all my so called friend Scott has been calling me dumb and stupid! At frist, I shook it off because I thought he was joking and he's been in a bad mood but the more I thought about it, it made me think. Did he really mean it? Is he right? Am I really dumb? Then, I ended up crying on the bus because it really hurt my feelings and he wanted to talk but I just didn't feel like talking to him. He just to insensitive!

And the worse thing happened to me today! HICKY PLAYER ASKED ME TO HOMECOMING! ARGH! And he's broken up with his girlfriend so he's no after me! Some guys get the message that you don't want to go out with them but not HickPlayer! I better break out the rejection hot line numbers again!

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Written about Tuesday 2004-08-31
Written: (5784 days ago)
Next in thread: 342577

My poor dairy! I've ingored it so!

But anyways...

School has been good and I have three thing going on with guys.

1. Rupert Look a Like- Rupert Grint is Ron Weasely from the HP movies and I already have a huge obbession with red heads so this guy is my total dream boat! I finally intreacted with him and now I thing he digs me!

2. Gunner- Gah! Gunner is a HICK! He's a freak and he likes me sadly. He wants my number and wants to go on a date with me. NO DICE BUDDY! I'm already pretending to have a boy friend and if that dosen't work, my friend Brit will pretend to be my girlfriend. Plus, he already has a girlfriend.

3. Mataeo- He's this really, really, REALLY cute guy who rides my bus, in my first peroid and my fourth period. Problem is he enjoys annoying me for some strange reason and everytime I give him my notebook he writes all these really dumb things in it!

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Written about Tuesday 2004-08-24
Written: (5791 days ago)

Okay I don't know why on earth I did this and i really shouldn't have because no I'm kicking myself for it!

There's this really, really, REALLY annoying guy in my phyics class named Gunner and he's all like "Can i have your number?" Of course I say no because mom won't let me date yet until I'm 16. He told me liked me and I was like "Greattttttttttttttttttttttttttt!" The guy is a total hick! However, I stupidly promised him that I would give him my number when I turned 16! Why did I do that? Gr!

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Written about Monday 2004-08-09
Written: (5807 days ago)
Next in thread: 319301

I haven't written in my dairy in forever! Well, here it goes!

Tomorrow is the first day of a new school for me and the beginning of a new life as well. At my old school I was considered odd and all of the 8th graders (besides Jarred and a few) didn't accept me. Some asked me why I didn't speak like a black person. FYI you idot assholes! I'M NOT ENTIRELY BLACK! I just hate it when people think you should act a certian way just because of your skin color! It bites!

My neice got baptised today! Hooray!

And I finally finsihed my book! Now to find a publisher!

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Written about Friday 2004-05-07
Written: (5900 days ago)
Next in thread: 216122, 223497, 230539

I feel much better! I still wish to escape reality! At my school I feel so out of place because I am different. I hate, hate it, hate! I wish I could just go to some place where I could be myself and everyone would love me for it!

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Written about Sunday 2004-03-14
Written: (5955 days ago)

Daddy's Little Defect

I, don't don't don't believe I fell asleep talk's a waste of time
The roller coaster that I rode with her on Valentines
And all I see I don't don't don't believe
And what you see is what you get with me
Wasting all your time


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away from me


If you want to be mine
So don't don't don't make a sound your father's around to play with your head
The gift-wrapped guilt-trip kisses left you naked in your bed
And all I see don't don't don't believe
And all you see is what you get with me
Wasting all your time
Wasting all your time


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away


Letting go
Letting go again
Letting go
Letting go and your left with nothing
Let go it will be aright


I, don't don't don't believe I fell asleep talk's a waste of time
The roller coaster that I rode with her
Wasting all your time
Wasting all your time


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away


Going all the way
Going all the way


Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away


Waiting for you
If you wanna be mine

Preformed by and written bySugarcult

167178  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-03-14
Written: (5955 days ago)
Next in thread: 167232

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me

Oh things are gonna happen naturally

And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side

And balancing the whole thing

But often times those words get tangled up in lines

And the bright lights turn to night

Until the dawn it brings

A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me



Cause you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

What you and I spoke of

Others only dream of the love that I love



See I'm all about them words

Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words

Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards

More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Now you and I, you and I

Not so little you and I anymore

And with this silence brings a moral story

more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy



you and I both loved what you and I spoke of

and others just read of and if you could see now

well I'm already finally out of



and it's okay if you have go away

just remember the telephone works both ways

and if I never ever hear it ring

if nothing else I'll think the bells inside

have finally found you someone else and that's okay

cause I'll remember everything you sang



you and I both loved what you and I spoke of

and others just read of and if you could see now

well I'm already finally out of words.

Sung and written by Jason Mraz

167170  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-03-14
Written: (5955 days ago)

"Come On"

And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

[CHORUS:]
Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

[CHORUS]

Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale

[CHORUS (2x)]

Come on..

Sung and written by Ben Jelen

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