time for a biiiig big ramble now.. its quite a while since i last wrote..
so.. here goes..
new fish.. 10 neons, 2 guppies (no dead ones), 1 platy. they are all cute. same link as below for updated aquarium stuff
i finished my exams.. yay! but i dont think i did too well, so i can only hope that i passed them.
work still sucks, and i really really wanna quit. the cinema are looking for staff, so i might apply there instead.
i've seen harry potter on tuesday. its good, they twisted the book, but its still good.
everyone starts going home now. uni is finished for this year, and doesnt start again till end of september. :( pelayo already left for majorca (1 hour ago), adam is going next wednesday, marc goes on friday, katrina is home for a week, and comes to live at mine for a while, rachel.. well rachel is rachel. ash is away since 4 days, duncan stopped uni at all..
this just sucks.. who am i gonna geek out with?! hmpf..
and the ppl at home have all changed.. they are like totally not the way they used to be.. this just sucks.
and now its 6.21am and i havent been sleeping at all.. rubbish..
bah bah bah.. another of my cute guppies died. i think something is wrong with the water. gonna take a sample to the fish-shop today. they told i should bring one in, next time i come anyway.. this is just not fair.. *mumble*
and i decided i'd make a partial water change. changed about 10l.. i dont want my fish to die. its noooooooooooot fair!!!
oh... and my new work is ok i guess.
on friday was my first day there. the first 2 hours were really freaky. i was thinking of quitting even before the night was over... i had to walk around and collect empty glasses.. and empty ashtrays and stuff like that.. but then when i got all panicky they let me swap with someone else, so i was behind one of the bars, and had to clean glasses. that was a lot better, cos i didnt have to handle so many people.
and on saturday i had to collect glasses again, but it was better, cos i knew the place then, and i knew some of the staff and such.. so i managed to do my job the whole night long.. i think i've earned about 60 pounds now..
i've seen troy yesterday. really cool film!! but i won't tell you about it, cos i don't wanna spoil it for anyone..:)
i went and bought new fish today.. 3 guppies, and 1 "suckerfish" thing.. i think it's a whiptail something...
anyway.. its really good that i didnt give them names yet, cos one of the guppies seems to be dying already. guess he couldnt handle the stress, even though i did my best to make it calm and easy. the others seem to be really fine, and sean and willow are being nice, too.
i'm kinda sad, cos the one that's dying is the one that had the prettiest colors, and anyway.. he was real cute.
i can just hope that the whiptail doesnt die, cos he cost 7 pounds.. for a fish.. omg..
if i put pics on my homepage, i'll link them to my house.
i'll have to think of names for them though.. even if the cute one dies.. they need names. everyone needs a name.
did i already write that i gave my cuty cute fish names?? anyway. i've got a smaller red one, with black tail and fins, and he's called Sean. the other one is a litte bit bigger and orange, with 2 black stripes along her tail, and she's called Willow. I cant wait till i get more. they are sooo adorable. never though i could have so much fun with fish, since i cant cuddle them.
tonight im going to a friends house, and we'll watch dvds. probably anime dvds. and i hope my friend finds the 2nd dvd of berserk, since i think thats a really really good anime. even though sometimes its a little disturbing.
and i think i'm in love.. but not that it matters.. its less the obsessive kind this way.. and i don't get jealous much. still some, but not much. might be cos i'm kinda happy with kev.. but i still get crushs on a regular basis.. thats weird.. oh well.. i think life is pretty fun right now.. :D
ok.. quick update here.. :)
i've got a job!! wohoo. i was so totally nervous during the interview, but it looked kinda easy afterwards.
i'll be working at chicago rock café in aberdeen.. friday and saturday nights.. well.. gonna be tired and stuff, but they said i'll get about 75pounds (110â¬) a week. thats not too bad.
i'm pretty nervous about my exams in 2 1/2 weeks.. didnt do much studying yet, and i can't seem to get my head around it, or stay concentrated once i do. i'm fairly sure i'll pass the exams, but i dont just wanna pass, i do sort of wanna get good marks.. but i feel so lazy and sleepy all the time..
i've got 2 fish for my aquarium.. 2 platys. they are so cute.. ;) if they're ok in a week from now, i'll know that my tank is safe, pump working fine and stuff.. and then i can go and buy some more fish.. :D yay
a friend showed me "sonata arctica" they are cool!!! they really really rock! http://www.son
best songs so far i think are "broken" "champagne bath" and "silver tongue" all on the "winterheart's guild" album
ooh. today is a happy day :)
first, it was all sunny this morning.
second, i saw someone
third, i skived to lectures with some friends, and we had food instead
fourth, my practical was really easy today
i think i've got a crush on my lab-demonstrat
right. life still sux. pretty much.
why are boys so stupid?
what would you do, if you boyfriend called you a slapper? and what would you do, if on the next day you asked him, and he said he wasn't even sorry, and wouldn't take it back?
situation was this:
we went out to one of his mates, to play some poker with them. it was pretty fun. since i am getting along quite well with his mates (unless him.. he doesnt like any of my friends.. least he behaves like he doesnt). particularly me and richard get on quite well, so we made a couple of jokes and talked a bit. with kev (my bf) still sitting in the middle.
we joked, that we could swap seats, so we dont have to talk past kev all the time, but he said no, in quite a stern way. when we asked why, he said he doesnt trust neither me nor richard. again why, and he said because i was a slapper (slang for slut, lose woman).
wohoo.. another one of these horror-crazy dreams. really.. the one today was worse than any of the others yet.. it started off i think, with me having a birthday, and just wanting to keep sleeping, and my mum kept waking me, and i should open my presents, which were all old things, except for a poster (cant remember what was on it), and she put it on the wall and for some stupid reason she punched 2 holes in it. which totally upset me. then i was late for school. and for some other weird reason it was christmas, too. my first lesson was a german lesson with my teacher from 5th and 6th (and then later again) grade, that i had a total crush on. but helping him was some really bitchy teacher, and cos i never ever listened, she just called me out again and again and again, so i got really really pissed off and shouted at her, and in the end i turned her, with the chair upside down (dont ask me how that works..) and drew a smily on her fat as*. well i started, and she got up again, and said, she'd send me to the headmaster and stuff like that. the rest of the class was just laughing, and sorta being on my side. that teacher i had the crush on just stood there all the time, with his arms crossed and a small smile on his face.
because i was late in the first place, i got a lift, so i didnt have my bike to go home in my free hour after that, so i kinda went to the library/comput
and when i woke up i was still crying.
now, that was a weird dream. i am convinced i've got a couple of real psychological problems. not that they're severe or anything, but i'm pretty sure, they're there..
does anyone actually read this??
father complex or not.. i was dreaming about giles this morning.. and it felt awesome. i mean. he's an old guy and such, but he's just so appealing, and, and,.. all this stiff-upper-li
i was climbing yesterday!!! :D
but now i'm all sore. and uni starts again today. gotta go to my first lecture in about 15 minutes. and its allc old outside.. :( dont wanna go. and i'm going home in 2 months.. thats cool.. but its scary, cos that means, that in waaaaaay less than 2 months i've got exams, and i didnt even start any revision yet. and they actually did teach stuff that i didnt know before this time, unlike last term, where i had done all the stuff in school like a million times before.. aaah.. someone help me!
ooh. hello. :o)
i'm hungry. in about one hour i will get spaghetti with bolognese sauce.. ooh.. healthy healthy.. lol..
i decided, not to let it get to me.. the whole climbing thing. i mean, there is a small (actually tiny) climbing wall at the aberdeen beach, which - so i'm told - is so small, it is more like bouldering, than climbing, so you don't need ropes and such, so that means i can go by myself. and since i've gained quite a bit of weight since christmas, i decided, once university starts again (next monday), i'll go climbing once a week, and then, depending on my time and such, either to the gym or swimming once a week as well.
i'm going home in 2 months. on the 19.6. and i'll stay till the 19.7. i've "got to" keep up with my friends at home.. with the climbing.. depending on how it goes at the wall, i might actually ask one of the ppl from the lairig club to show me lead-climbing. you know.. when you go first in a real wall, and put all the "dangly-bits" into the rock, so ppl can follow you without falling down ;o)
there also seems to be a hell of a lot good books about climbing on amazon. i might buy some..
i still want a job. because i want money. but i dont wanna work. paradox. a friend of mine who works in a nightclub said they are looking for glass-collecto
there is supposed to be an animal shelter in aberdeen. so far i couldnt find anything, but if i _do_ find it, i was gonna see if i could get a job there. i've worked in one before, it was mostly cleaning but it was still fun. and it would suit my studies.. in a way.
shame this town doesnt have a zoo. and the closest one is a 2h+ drive away in edinburgh. no good for a weekend job or else.
although.. maybe next sommer i'll go to africa for 6 weeks, help out in an animal resort thing. "only" gotta pay flights. the ppl who organise that kinda stuff give you food and shelter, and in return you help out with the animals. that would be great. warm!!! weather and lots of cool animals. only prob. is, its still more than 1000pounds.. but i've got 1 year to save for it, so i should manage..
ok.. enough for now.. gotta tidy up my harddrive.. its floooded ;)
i'm pissed off..
why do all my stupid friends back in germany all still have fun so much, when i dont..
even though there are so much more possibilities here in scotland to go outside climbing, i dont know with whom or how or anything.
and my friends home,.. they are in that stupid alpine club, and go climbing everyweek, or make 4-day trips somewhere. one of them just got a birthday present from the club, going somewhere to teach her some sort of climbing..
and this just sucks. and they all keep telling me.. "ah, ive got this new, and ive got this new, and bla bla, and we went there, and we went here"..
i wanna be home again. :( but dont wanna live with my mum. she was here for one week, and it sucked. not cos we dont get on well, just because she was around 24/7. thats just too much. and im getting fat. thats no fun either.
i just wanna scream!
I'm bored. and tired. guess that is because i sleep waaay too much. i've got easter break, so everyday i'm sleeping til about 12noon. ooh.. baad that is.
tomorrow (or actually, today that is) i should really tidy and clean up my flat.. my mum's coming to visit on monday.. and she's this cleaning freak.. :D
she's gonna stay for about a week. wonder what we'll do in that time.
oooh... kev has gotten himself a job-offer today :) yay! they still gotta tell him the details, so if they pay enough he'll have a job and stop being depressed :)
its gonna be a tough one though. starts at 8 and continues till 5.. pretty long day.. its gonna be weird too. actually the ppl from the firm say, they dont really know what the job is about.. but kev said, they wanna do stuff like, designing tents for helicopters, and mashines to remove chewing gum.. so i guess they are somewhat a desing-inventi
ooh.. my stomach makes weird noises..
i still dont like essays. *hmpf*
i'm more than halfway now - i did get my extension - but i'm running out of ideas. i _do_ have someone else's essay, that is exactly what mine is about, but i dont like copying.. well i do, but its not good.
and i dont know, but im pretty sure, that i've got a severe concentration problem. my head just doesnt seem to work very well. instead of working, i start staring outside the window, or doodle senseless stuff on a piece of paper.
and actually.. for once THE SUN IS SHINING IN SCOTLAND!!!
so i wanna go outside, instead of being inside and trying to write my essay... hmpf.. uni sucks
bah bah bah..
i hate writing essays,,. especially if theres so much other fun stuff to do instead.. bah bah.. only halfway, and friday is due date.
i would get an extension till monday sort of. but teacher says i should give him a medical certificate. but i wasnt even ill. duh. so i dont have one.. dont know if ill still get extension, so gotta work hard to finish it for friday. but its so boooooooring and annoying, and i seem to be kind of off-topic with what im writing.. bad bad bad..
and i'm all homesick. p-chan is going home to spain over easter. i wanna go to germany :(
my mums coming to scotland, but that wont change the temperature here, neither will it bring my doggie or my room or my friends, or my park, or my super-cool town, or my river, or my already green trees, or my flowers, or my pond, or my rivers, or my atmosphere, or my wood, or my old school, or my climbing halls, or my shops, or my cathedrale, or my air, or my trainstation, or my taxis, or my tram, or my noisy motorway, or my mums cool car, or my real nice coffee, or my real food, or my real comfy bed, or my tv with more than just 4 channels, or my radio, or my monster, or my goldfish, or my bike, or just everything. baah.
I WANNA GO HOME!!!!
i've got a headache. one of those nasty ones, right above the eye, and it won't go away.
i finally finally have the first 2 parts of angels in america. great great film!!! everyone should watch it!
emma thompson is just brilliant in it! oooh.. *swoon* that voice..
ah.. [Veltzeh] got me drawing again. thanks, dude.
got to know [Eben] a bit better.. nice guy. really nice.
got uni tomorrow. should finish some hand-ins for biology, but dont know the answers, so can't be bothered.
i'm thinking about watching the oscars, but they are sooo late. the real thing just starts at 12.50. thats so bad. middle of the night.
have a new favourite band: keane. buy they somewhat sound like travis. you should still check them out
hmm.. first entry since.. almost a year.. woh..
am in scotland now..
it's been snowing for the last week or so, and it just doesnt stop. its kinda cool though.. sooo much snow. :D
today's been a cool day. didnt do any artistic stuff, but did some tidying of my room.. means mum isnt so pissed anymore.. yay
have been climbing with my friends.. d'oh! i love it :) but my fingers huuuuuuuuuuuuu
ouch ouch ouch
n my boyfriend doesnt understand why i talk to boys on yahoo messenger. says he's gonna kill the boy.. just cos the boy offered me a massage if we'd ever meet, cos of my sore fingers.. boys are strange.. dont understand em.
it's gettin dark but the sky still has some light, so its kinda colored cool. but its depressing too. i need some hugs. my bf is just too far away (bah cologne, germany - aberdeen, scotland)
just fckin stpid life..