I have no drama. Drama doesn't visit me very much anymore.
Well, no this isn't true. I have drama. I have the kind of drama that the average person thinks is mega drama. But i've been through so much more than the average person.
So I have no drama because It is NOTHING compared to what i've been through before. My life is peaches. Would you like some?
He's so good. Just so good. And so sweet, and tender, and wonderful! My darling, sweetheart, wonderful boy.
Reading old conversations, I realize I've changed so much. Those people, those situations, they've all been lost to time. When I thought I loved him, why... that wasn't me! That was a shadow of myself, so unsure of who she was, so unsure of anything. And now... now, thanks a lot to him though I hate to admit that, I know who I am. I stand strong and with resolve and respect for things and myself. I've come to a good place. And looking back at myself when I was in that horrid place... I was completely different. I don't even know how you all can recognize me any more. I'm not the same. Not in the least bit.
Do you ever find yourself missing someone you used to hate, because you don't really remember why you hated them? I want so badly to apologize. To tell her it was all my fault. I dont know if it'd be true, but i feel so badly. It weighs on my conscience all the time. I cant help wondering....S
Paris, guys. He wants me to come stay with him for a month in Paris.... and two months in Nice, and we'd see Italy.... *swoons*
*sighs* Mark and Nail broke up. Goddamn, took freaking long enough. Nail's been trying to do that for the longest time.
T__T Is the MysticSphinx loosing her TOUCH???!! I just posted a journal on FA thats all like "I WILL MAKE YOU FREE STUFF!" and whatnot and I have wut? ONE TAKER. U_U I have eight avatar slots, three trade slots, and two request slots. I only got a taker for a request. Dude. This sucks. I am sincerely hoping that none of my usuals are on right now, and its not that since I started the whole Fundamental Alliance thing everyone is going "eeew" at me. Cuz seriously, my Fundamental Alliance stuff has gotten not many views/comments
Aah, and there's BlueHart. And Ivan. U_U;; whew. I feel better.
I just went through a whole half of a box of wheat thins without even realizing it.
That is skill right there. BRILLIANT WIZARDRY!
Eti got his passport!!! Weew!! Finally. Jeebsus, it took them long enough. U__U
I realized why these are always so short: I have absolutely nothing to say. Ever.
Man, one of my boobs is like... MONSTROUSLY bigger than the other. Like one weighs about as much as a melon. The other is a grapefruit. Uncool.
I just vacuumed up a battery. My first thought was: "I wonder if the vacuum will explode now..."
>__> I love these ET diary entries. I cant write about him anywhere else that he wont see... >_> *laughs*
I want to be sexy. T_T I want to be. But so far I'm just pretty. I'm just cute.
I could send him a naked picture of me masturbating, all he'd say was something like "The expression on your face is cute." >_> Its frustrating, but comforting as well.
If I say I love him, murder me, cuz its probably a lie.
I am a crazy person. An insane person. A person who cannot say no. But I am also a person who is probably going to graduate, so thats a good thing.
>__> I laugh in the face of reason. I ignore everyone who is smart and logical and knows what they're talking about. I get myself into relationships with random french guys on the internet!! And am I proud? HELL NO! Am I loud? HELLZ YEAH!! Am I proud?? TO SOME EXTENT!! >__> Shuddup. I do what I want.
Occasionally when you are feeling sort of nervous, sad, and strange, a good orgasm is the perfect cure.
And that, my friends, was like... amazing.
^__________^ Good night, I heart you all.
He says he loves me.
And I am so scared. I feel sorta sick.
I dont want to be stupid. But I am a hopeless romantic.
*flails* I dont know what to do. Long-distance internet-based relationships are BAD. Everyone else's experiences have told me so. And he's in FRANCE. That is FAR away. (Granted, not as far as Australia, Ashley, but FAR away!)
The letter is long and full of the same thing over and over.
But there, that one paragraph. He says,
"So I can say… I think… I’m sure… I love you."
I've never read something that makes me any happier.