2013-01-30 [Sideways]: please don't freak out or report me. Just please read this first, at least. It's yelling and cussword-free. I promise.
I am only trying to message you on things only we can see. It's a little extreme to unwatch your own pages... But looked, in a lot of ways, I overreacted. I should have been able to say it in a way that wasn't so... Like violent and aggressive.
Look, I was (and am) talking out of a feeling of intense sadness and insecurity. Fact of the matted is, I was wrong to call you those names, but you do blow me off. On a daily basis. It hurts everytime. The point I meant to make is that I badly need people to talk to. I hope you don't delete those
roleplays. That really hurts. I don't attack roleplays. I comment on them when I get blocked :/ that's all.
Flisky hurt me really bad. So did my last two exes before her. It's sometimes hard for me to trust you because you've abandoned me twice and then kinda strung me along with this one day relationship thing. That doesn't bother me very much at all. I'm not jealous that you don't want to be in a romantic relationship. And I know it's not cool to come down on you just because you're the last option I had for someone to talk to.
That's not your fault. But again, Kim. The fact remains that you straight blow me off. All of the time. Lots and lots. I just wanted literally enough time for someone to tell me I don't deserve to be lonely. It's not fair to say I'm atttacking your damn author career because I need a friend. That's cheap and low and I stand by that accusation.
But I should not have called you a bitch. Self centered, yes. But not a scumbag. That was cheap of me too. But it was because I was sad and felt abandoned. If you don't think you have a responsibility to be there for me, then no, you are not my friend. If you think your behavior qualifies as "patient," I must say I do NOT agree. But you're still a better person than I just ranted about. And I am sorry.