[Love me. Hate Me. I'm still on UR mind.]'s diary

606450  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-23
Written: (5639 days ago)

THINGS THAT ANNOY ME!


1.)people who act like their my friends then ditch me (btw on that note..i just wanna say that if u think it's gonna be like last summer and ur gonna be my friend during the school year u've got another thing comin bc i wont be ur "best friend" again..i wont make the mistake of doing that again!)
2.)people who dont tell me they have a problem with me straight up
3.)people forgetting about me (oh and i believe thats on ur list too whitney)
4.)people who think their better than me or any1 for that matter
5.)people who feel sorry for themselfs (and no i dont feel sorry for myself i feel sorry for the 1's who no longer have me as a friend cause its their lose not mine :D)
6.)people who back down on their words
7.)people who give up their babys
8.)annoying people who ask stupid questions
9.)whores
10.)and last but not least...people who i trusted to be my friends but then got mad at me in the summer then became my friend again (well best friend) then ditched me this summer too...humm i wonder who that could be



605747  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (5640 days ago)

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song: Nobody's home lyrics
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watch her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
(Chorus)
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
Open your eyes
(open your eyes)
And look outside
Find the reason why (why)
You've been rejected
(you've been rejected)
And now you can't find
What you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
where she belongs
(Repeat Chorus)
Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place (yeah!)
(Repeat Chorus)
She's lost inside
lost inside (oh, oh uhh)
She's lost inside
lost inside (oh, oh uhh) oooh



LINKIN PARK LYRICS
"Somewhere I Belong"
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Repeat Chorus]
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
[Repeat Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong


self explainable
597700  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-06-13
Written: (5649 days ago)

i dont know what to do anymore.......i dont know...if i even believe in love anymore....i just wanna give up...on everything...they say love will find you....but how will love find me if i'm not trying to find it?....i dont wanna end up like some people tho who look their whole life for love and never find it...or those who look for love so much they end up marrying like 10 times........i dont know......i hate this...y is life so complicated?

love this song!

Let Me Go lyrics
3 Doors Down
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve


In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


chours
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go


I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through


In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


chours
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go


And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows


chours
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go


And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

581304  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-05-23
Written: (5670 days ago)
Next in thread: 581461

fuck you jeremy..that all i can say right now..

416737  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-11-18
Written: (5857 days ago)

so lifes good....I mean..yeah...my grandfather died, my brothers in jail, my sister may be put in jail, and I cant do anything right...but still its good I mean I try to foget my problems and just be happy....and thats what I do look to the positive like...my friends..my new boyfriend who understands me I should add..and everything eles that could go good....so yeah I'm not complaining....

270698  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-06-30
Written: (5997 days ago)
Next in thread: 526484

i made a song!!! its ok but not great...

        ITS NOT
When everythings what it seems its not
Theres not happyness my hearts gonna rot
I'll never love what im not sure of
Nothing makes sence when your hearts in a ditch
I cant get away nothing seems okay
So give life a stire when everythings a blur
My emotions died theres nothing inside
Im halo Im halo
Theres nothing there for you anymore
It like my heart said no and closed the door
Theres nothing left but this blank stare
No words can ever make this fair
So.........
When everythings what it seems its not
Cause Im halo Im halo
And this smile on my face
Has left without a trace
Its like a wave from the ocean
Washing over me taking my emotions
Now the lights turned out and im not gonna pout
Cause i know not what
When every things what it seems
ITS NOT
   By: Monic Armendariz
Writen 6/30/04

240972  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2004-06-01
Written: (6027 days ago)

im good today! a friend told me a couple days ago what kind of person i was and he told me to look to everything good and i did and now i feel great! ooyeah this guy likes me but he lives in oklahoma city but im going to oklahoma again for about a month so i'll get to be with him! i dont need them any more im still monic with or without them and fuck them if they dont like it!!

231786  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-05-23
Written: (6035 days ago)
Next in thread: 526483

my brothers an facehole as alli would say.......i feel like laying down and never geting up......i wanna be invisible..i wanna get on a plane and just fly fly somewhere anywhere just away from here i hate it here i cant stand them im going insane yeah! sure y not i bet nobody would notice if i just got on a plane and left i wanna go somewhere where nobody really knows y i am the way i am and they dont ask!....nobody can fully understand me i mean i cant even fully understand me ok i guess thats all i gotta say bye......

220255  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-05-12
Written: (6046 days ago)

ok i dont love trevor sherry he's a shitface...............my b-days in 2 days............bored as fuck...............i seem to become invisible when i want to be seen but still im invisible when i dont want to be seen...........................i wish some day i can get away from this madness in my life i wanna go far away and never look back........................................some day..........

191567  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-04-11
Written: (6077 days ago)

at the moment i feel loving!!
i love trevor sherry,me,all my friends, my sisters annie cherish and whitney who arent really my sisters but more than my sisters ever were! if u got that good if u didnt o well! i also hate many many people! like hump-for-free i hate her more than many people i hate! i think thats about all i gotta say so bye bye 4 now

181556  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-03-31
Written: (6089 days ago)

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah look i wrote in this

164727  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-03-10
Written: (6109 days ago)

I AM BORED HELP ME BE UNBORED!!!!!!!!!

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