Okay here's thing. I hate translating songs into their actual meaning! I love just listening to the son gs I like because of not listening to the words, but that is only for some songs. If people find me as a hypocrite, notice in the sentence above this one sayning SOME SONGS. Just wanted to point that out. I do have my reasons, but i don't feel like sharing them at this time XD because I am lazy.
Life has always been a mystery to me as far as I can remember, but I guess that's what I have always loved about it. Letting things get to me, and then trying to solve or change that problem or confusion into a an educated motive. I hope that made sense. At least it does to me anyway XD! I miss drawing so much, remembering how to get the feeling of what i should draw, I find that harder than just simply drawing just buy looking at another picture. Although I am not good at drawing life like portaits, I am learning and getting a little better at drawing faces, eyes, ears and noses on the characters that other people or an individual has drawn. No! I don't intend to portray the same duplicates. That would be rude and wrong to copy some one elses work and say that it is your own when in fact it is a copy you were inspired by.
I intend draw more of similar characteric faces I have been drawing later. It is a challenge only because I find that it takes almost all my energy to draw something I really want to draw and try to be patient about it at the same tim. I do find drawing fun, but I wouldn't take it as a career, only because I would be too stressed and know that I will do bad.
I am however getting inspired by Jackie bow and arrow! the more I learn to shoot with the bow and arrows, the more I become so fascinated and want to practice more on shooting at the huge target she has. I can't remember what it's called, but it has circles and is extremely thick so that the arrows don't go all the way through it. T.T I feel horrible for say this, but some times i just can't wait go back to her house in order to attempt to practice shooting with the bow and arrow. I mean..I feel like LINK ALMOST!! or ROBIN HOOD!! *_* I know..it's weird to think of myself as a guy, but I wasn't intending to feel like a guy! Those non-fictional characters just popped into my head like a dream!
I've gotta go to bed...I should..but I just can't stop thinking about the bow and arrows..it feels almost perfect holding them in the palms of my hands.
Well..I guess good night..or good morning XD..-.- T_T
Not always going to be on here as I usual, but who the hell cares. What the hell do I want?? John keeps asking me and i still don't know that answer, but then some times i actually find an inspiration then some how loose it @__________@ Whhhhyyyyyy!!I feel better almost more then some times at imes just writing things down or typing nothingness on the computer. ..Life is about to show me how much I am about to fuck myself over.. can feel it..and the only thing I can really do is either watch or ..I don't know, exercise or something.
Im driving myself freaking nuts just stepping out the door and thinking, "WHY IN THE HELL DIDN'T I GET MY PERMITT OR TRY TO GET MY LICENSE SOONER I AM SUCH A MORON!!!!!! I SWEAR TO GOD IT'S DRIVING ME BONKERS AND IS PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH!!!!!!!AND ALL BECAUSE I FELT THE MANUAL WAS TO FUCKING LONG TO READ AND ANNOYING BECAUSE TO ME I SLOWLY HAVE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT PEOPLE SAY AND WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT!!!
I know I'm not always wise and there when it comes to talking to some people and understanding what they're talking about so much, but I do care. My sister makes a better person who talks to people and tries to help them out person than I do. some times I feel like I want to and try to act like my sister. It is every hard to explain for me to say how and why I find Theresa is one of the people whom I want to be like. Every time i be my self, people make so many annoying comments and look at me funny. it drives me crazy. the thing is it's always been so hard to do the things I want to do with out feeling embarassed and paranoid. i so badly just don't want to care, but I do. *mummbles to self* ya ya all part of growing up blaablaaabbbll
Why must men have crushes on me now?, as in as a teenager, why not when I was little? Was too ugly and annoying when i was little? Only god knows why. Is it that I have changed my looks now from when I was little, especially my additude? Only God knows. I can't draw this stupid hand the way I want to draw it it's stressing me out. Stupid stress. It is a part of life. I feel so annoyed right now. my life right now so doesn't make sense to me right now. it's because of all the stupid thinking, I don't know to find a way in releasingthe feelings i hold and may be it's because long ago, I used to be a jerk to others and was acting like a very selfish and annoying girl. I hope I hae changed a little since then. <3 Skittles
I must be the most boring person right now. There is like not a lot of excitement in my life except for the fact that i have a bf. my mom bought me two new white shirts today and there is only one that look like a t-shirt I admire greatly. My friend is tryin to find me on here now. LOL, she says she wants to stock me lol!!!!(as j/k) I really need to do something on the website. I am still a newbie though meeeeehhhhhhhh
I shall talk later! byes!<3 Skittles