[Earoluim]'s diary

1063665  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2009-01-20
Written: (4867 days ago)

"I love you just the way you are"

I'm sorry
if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".
I'm sorry
if I'm not tan enough for you
I'm sorry
if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you. I'm sorry
If i don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry
if im not tall enough.
I'm sorry
if my hair is not long enough.
But most of all...
I'm sorry
that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.

[If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry".
If you're one of the few GUYS with enough balls to repost and you would never make your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are"

1053542  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-11-04
Written: (4944 days ago)

Something to live for….

Truly. What does each of us live for in life? Do we live for the value of things that we hold more dear to us than human life itself? Do we live just for the sake of pleasing others when no one else around would do so, do we live for ourselves, for some selfish greedy notion of thought so perverse we cannot help but to snicker in our own alienation. Or do we live for something much more than ourselves, a cause worth more understanding than any of our forefathers or friends could hope or dream of being able to obtain in such a reality of today? Love? Happiness? Bringing joy to those to that which we choose to surround ourselves with? What truly do you live for? When all the world is plunged into the shadow of Chaos and Destruction, what will keep you going into the heart of such evil and to male from its ashes a phoenix of a greater future born anew?

Do you know?
Do you know what you live for?

I know what I live for in this and all days long passed and that are to come. I live for those that cannot, who cannot. Those selfless ones who above all else, let is fall upon themselves the sacrifice of a few for the goodness of many. I live to bring a smile to those that I cherish deeply within my own bosom, to those who were once friends and that have in time become closer than any family could ever be. To those brothers and sisters I have shed blood with and those that I have yet to do in turn with newly. I live so that all may know a brighter and better of days of time. I live so that all may have a chance to live to see good in the heart of man, the purity and loyalty of brotherhood, so that one day all may cherish and enjoy a such eternal happiness.
But above all, I live for Her, that to which I hold more dear to my heart that anything else in such a time. From my every waking moment to every dream held in time I live for Her. She, to which brings a smile across my lips in even the slightest notion of her being, such joy and warmth of the spirit and heart would I feel each and every moment of Her to thought and mind. And to such happiness and elation in life to live for, so in fact that one day, such a one prefect day could every so much come into my existence as I have never believed. To live so that such a perfect day could come into revelation and blissfully lay in sp soft a tall, grassy field, free from the worries of the day and life of oneself. Having Her lying in my embrace, looking up into the heavens and elegant beauty of a full moon as a gentle mist rises off a nearby lake and caresses softly over the two of us. To that in passing would bring such as smile to my face, such a smile.

And to that I see no better reason to live, or to live for.
For one love and one love alone, my love, my life, my cherished one.

967108  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-08-15
Written: (5392 days ago)
Next in thread: 971229

Life is Like a Box of Chocolates

One never knows all the bends in the road or has all the answers to life’s questions. One could only dream of the possibilities that spread throughout life. A persons life is not something that should be expected in any sort of manner but simply understood, whether the reason behind the understanding is knowing how to accept it or just simply being able to understand within reason.
Whether you pull out a raspberry chocolate truffle or a caramel nut turtle, things in life come and go as they please. Flavors appear and disappear, textures change slowly or drastically, things are never as simple as they seem to some and to others they are. One of the sayings that I use everyday is “Expect everything and yet nothing”. You can expect to get some things in life but that will not mean that you will get them by just sitting around, there are things that you cannot wait around for hoping or even expecting that they will come to you. There are times when you have to go after the things that you want whether it seems worth it or not.
And if in the rare occasion that you have a bump, or a bad spot, you can think of it like this. ‘You have already bitten into the chocolate; you might as well finish it’. Hard times come and go just as much as the good times do, hopefully less so. I believe that you cannot have the good without the bad, that there has to be equilibrium. Things are as they are though, and no one can change that unless their drive to do so is matched with who they are and have an understanding that some things are not going to be as they expected them.

944298  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-05-31
Written: (5467 days ago)

"Thinking of you, wherever you are.

We pray for our sorrows to end,
and hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.

And who knows:
starting a new journey may not be so hard
or maybe it has already begun.

There are many worlds,
but they share the same sky -
one sky, one destiny."

941541  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-05-21
Written: (5477 days ago)
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This poem's for you,
Whether you like it or not.
These words are for you,
And they come from my heart.
You might think your nothing special,
But I've got to disagree,
Your smile, your laugh, your beautiful voice,
All mean the world to me.
One feathery touch of your fingers,
The softest kiss of your lips,
To set my heart beat soaring,
Gently place your hands on my hips.
Hold me tight, don't let me go,
I love you, I love you, oh I love you so.
You might think your nothing special,
But I've got to disagree,
That's why I wrote you this poem,
So you see how much you mean to me.

940833  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-05-19
Written: (5480 days ago)


Come with me in the darkness, O my heart
Who stole what had lain frozen in the time
Yet glad am I to wake now from the dream
To move again, to spring into the hunt.
O bright one, follow with your eyes of flame
Come with me, follow! Stalk with me the night!

My lady consort, we shall rule the night
Our robes the shadows, both our crowns my heart
Together we shall overcome the flame
Fire devours, but we preserve in time
Half-feral rulers we, blood-seekers on the hunt
The stalk, the kill more bittersweet than dream.

Long were the years I wandered in the dream
And in the dream no day, but endless night
Yet then you called me forth into the hunt
You yearning called, awakened to my heart
And now from long ago returns the time
To bring with me the dark, to kill the flame!

My nemesis has ever been the flame
The fire that stalks, the sun which kills the dream
But now, my love, it comes, that battle-time
When fire shall die, now fallen to the night!
And then, my love, beloved of my heart
The light shall fade, and we'll forever hunt.

My loved one, you returned to me the hunt
The search for blood, defiant of the flame
So with me now, let us become one heart
And with that heart we realize the dream
Take my hand and let us disappear in night
To stalk for blood; us two breathless in time.

Our enemy the fire, our friend the time-
The time to seek for blood, the time to hunt
Come with me now and we'll become the night
Our creeping shadows stifling the flame
The fire all between us and the dream-
Come with me in the darkness, O my heart.

Come now, my heart and for eternal time
We'll bring the dream, stalk joined upon the hunt
And spurning flame, we'll fade into the night.

939032  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-05-12
Written: (5487 days ago)
Next in thread: 1002567

• To laugh often and much,
• To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children
• To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
• To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
• To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
• To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
• This is to have succeeded

928511  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-04-09
Written: (5519 days ago)


The Angel in You
You don't see him, but I do.
Each time your eyes twinkle
I see him in you.

Every time you wipe my tears
With your kind and gentle ways
I see in you an Angel
Sent to smooth the way.

I don't know what I did
To deserve such a friend.
I thank God for you, my dear one
My Angel until the end

918516  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-03-10
Written: (5550 days ago)

Redeem me for all my sins, and make me feel like I wish.
My longing of night had been fulfilled, my dream feels right.
Mind the perdition at the times of yore, never see the truth.
Sometimes life is just paradise.

Darkness replaces itself with a light as mighty as the sun,
Sweltering withering ones who failed to find the right.
Land of sacred embodiment in which I will to be content.
Something it’s knocking at my door, I tremble to its coming.

How could it rape the way I feel like so,
For it once made love with a feeling that tore my tears from me.
Calling the name in nightfall, I see its previous lost love.
Do with me, whatever you wish, but never make it standard.

My tearful remembrance, ignited among the ruins in my heart.
The roses are wilted and my mind is forever to perish.
Senseless pain in my skin and turning the tables to stir evil.
The bruises of forgiveness are vanishing with the coming end.

Celebrate my reborn world’s logical smothering of fright.
Scratching the plague off my skin, making my blood flow,
It’s all the fault of the ghost of nothingness.
It makes me feel like I’m all alone, without sympathy, or hypocrisy.

Teardrops for a veiled horizon, a price for a stygian guild.
I will run forever through the misted meadows to find decay,
Taken into darkness by the widow’s roots.
Unable to care in a fragile sanctuary, I would give my all to breathe.

Don’t you dare lay a curse upon me, I’ll make you suffer,
But I still haven’t found that what seems to be here.
I’ve been battered and yet I may not give up.
Covered in a veil of blood, I have to find the way towards it.

Not seeing that all that I’m looking for is lost hope.
It’s too delicate for me to breathe, do you still will my laughter?
Cut loose from this world, the false hope lingers here,
How I wish I could be better than what I am now.

Guide me to my destiny, oh Stygian One.
Show me where to linger, aside of you

916233  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-03-03
Written: (5557 days ago)
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Out of the night that covers me
Black as a pit from pole to pole
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have winced or cried aloud
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid

It matters not how straight the gate
How charged with punishment the scroll
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul.

717983  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-12-19
Written: (5996 days ago)
Next in thread: 916613

why am I who I am . A machine for people to use as they wish. To tease and hinder as they like. To abus eand abuse to the point of brokenness. And then when the machine that needs help asks all who asked for its help show him their backs . Why is this me, why am I willing to hlp those that will never help me, to fight for someone that will not fight for me . Why, why must this be my everlasting road.

634199  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-07-28
Written: (6140 days ago)
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Why? Why must the Earoluim torment me so, take all that I love and leave me in the darkness where all is feared but the none I have. Why must it be so that love is given and then broken away from me with vengence. Why most the heart in my soul be shattered and broken again and again, each time reforming itself just behead the same fait to which it was cast upon. Am I not stong enough, or is this the life laid before my feet taht I walk unconsciously. Were are those that say that my side is where they be in my time of need. Where are those to say that my lonelyness will never happen. Where are those that have heart and concern for me but no ears or heart in which to bear me . Where? Why? Is this my punishment for doing something right? Somethnig wrong for the world in which I inhabit, for not flowing to a crowd but being my own cloud , and single wisp in the sky. Where are to those that say the impossible will never come to pass. Why am I here anymore if my fate is to break the rulse of such around me. why am I here if I can be happy one moment and the next have it ripped away from me for the reason in which that I cannot grasp or be attmitence. Where ? Why? I love the world. Yet no one wanted to love me in return. I loved a soul and they were taken from me by the words of others. Am I not strong enough? Is my love not strong enough for the soul that I love? Where? Why? Tears that have fallen from my eyes for the soul, where they not strong enough? Is my love not strong enough? Am I not? Where? Why?

576749  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-17
Written: (6211 days ago)

When the blood no longer runs
and the light no longer shines,
all will be lost
but in the coming chaos the shadow will stand tall,
Last of the Three Roses he will wage war on the coming chaos and will prevail.
Until his shadow consumes him he will be lost from all,
For ages he will wonder not knowing the path put before him, he will wonder his place in the world, he will look around him and notice that he is alone. He will be absorbed into the isolation that gave him strength. But in the dawning days of a new age the light will shine on him and a new rose will arise and remove him of his sorrow and his pain and anger. The white light will shine in his heart and give him new and greater strength. And will make him whole again. It will give a new and wonderous meaning to his life. One of happiness and joy, for all times.

                    Thanks my sweet sweet Lisse

277845  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-07-07
Written: (6526 days ago)
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When the blood no longer runs
and the light no longer shines,
all will be lost
but in the coming chaos the shadow will stand tall,
Last of the Three Roses he will wage war on the coming chaos and will prevail.
Until his shadow consumes him he will be lost from all,
In order to find the Ghost in the shadows
the blood needs to run
and the light needs to shine
for this is the greatest power
to revive what is lost in the shadows

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