i hate my life i hate this place and i wanna die,i wanna leave and never cpome back i wanna go away,i need a guy who will stay with me and keep me going and wont let me give up and who will actually make our relationship last PAST 18 FUCKING DAYS,and if he says i love you he MEANS it,and who will make me feel better and can make me laugh,fuck i dont give a shit any more...i give up on everyone and everything,im just gonna sit here and watch life go by b/c im tired of dealing with it...
somebody shoot me,i just want to be dead,my life is hell,to make everything worse my boyfriend broke up with me,his parents sayd he couldnt go out with me anymore...i hope he dont read this because i dint want him to know how heart broken and depressede i am right now or the fact that im crying over him b/c i dont want any sympathy from anyone,if u do read this plz dont ever mention it to me...and plz dont feel bad for me,im used to this,well i should be used to this...well,i dont know what to say,i dont think i'll ever stop loving him,i will have to force myself to move on though,wethere i like it of not...if we were meant to be,then fate will bring us back together,i hate feeling this vulnerable,i hate getting my heart broken,i should have stuck to my philosophy:why get attached when you know your gonna have to let go someday eventually...
i am sick of all these two faced people,im surrounded by them...i need to get the fuck outa here...i almost got into a fight woith this guy named chris long,hes an asshole...and an oompa loompa!he called me a hoe so i bitch slapped him as hard as i could...his eyes started to water and he tells me,"bitch ,you hit me again and i'll beat the fuck outa you"so i told him,"go ahead,you aint gona do shit,see im wide open,hit me i fucking dare u..."and that pussy ass daisy pusher walked away from me mumbleing under his breath,then he walks by me and goes,"you fucking bitch"i turn aroound and go"what the fuck did you say to me?"he says"did i stutter"i go"you fucking faggot i swear to god id hit you if we werent on school propeerty,i might hit you anyways you fucking asshole!"and he walks away and i start after him and fuking jonny(a friend of mine)hold sme back and tells me to kalm down,man he pissed me off so bad!ugh!
i hate my sisters!they are the spawn of satans evil twin brother!!!grr!
i am so sick of my sisters fighting with me and each other,im sick of getting yelled at because of them,im sick of people talking shit to me and not backing it up!im sick of this whole fucking town...i need to get the fuck away...forever or a day...i dont give a shit i just need to get out of here...im so sick of everyone fighting in front of me...im going fucking insane!!!ugh!!
this guy,chris long,at my school found this baby bird that fell out of its nest and died and he took it and through it at a car!!fucking ass hole thats fucking wrong!!!ugh!i started fucking punching the shit outta him when he told me n he was laughing too that f-ing asshole!!!!!i woulda killed him if one of my friends wouldnt of told me to back off,n that hes a dickhead and always will be even if i beat the shit outta him so i shouldnt waste my breathe and time!!ugh!!im having a bad day!!i need my baby to call me...i miss him so much!!!
i really like,well love,this guy.hes great.he has every thing i've always wanted in a guy...my only thing is that hes in california and im in texas,he says hes gonna try to come and see me this summer but i dont want to get my hopes up....i wrote a song about us,you know who you are and i hope you like it:
fate cant keep us apart forever by ashley moses
im thinkin of you,missing you,wanting you,and wishing you were here at my side,i need you to tell me everythings gonna be alright,that every things gonna be okay,yes thats what i want you to say!!
i go to sleep at night,dreaming of you at my side,telling me theres no need to hide,because youre here and youre mine
i think of you every moment of my life,fate is nothing, fate will arive,when it is time
i would give everything i have to see you
i would give everything ive got to meet you
i would give everything ive ever wanted to be with you
just one moment,just one minute of my life,
be strong hold on and never let go
i will be with you sooner that you know
baby im yours and baby your mine
and nothing can ever change that
and thats a fact
fate is nothing ,fate will arive ,when it is time,
fate cant keep us apart because we love eachother with all our heart!!
(it sounds better when im singing it) oh and peeps take my poll<poll:51131> please....
why do all the guys i date end up being assholes?!!!ug
with frustration and love
a cloud of fog rolls over me
a haze of confusion controls me
not knowing what to do
or how to act around you
my feelings rolled into a bundle
the blood dripping and forming a puddle
to many things going on at once
with anger i hear loud grunts
filled with life,yet pale and deadlike
tears flowing,yet not sad when i cry
overwhelmed,im going to hell,
my soul is to sell, i pushed you and i fell
lifes a journey that ends too soon
then you get stuck and marooned
my blood is pounding
people are crouding
my body knumb with shock
i quickly glace at the clock
i look in fear
towards the rear
i heard something i never wanted to hear
too much to bear
ploping down in my chair
i run my hands through his hair
why isnt life fair
i think as i stare
at the mask of darkness that casts upon his soul.
its your life that it costs
everyone awayz talking mess
it causes so much stress
you cant deny
so dont bother to lie
you never shut up
youre the one whos corrupt
you always jugde me
by what you see
stop stereotyping everyone
they dont like it none
shut your mouth for one second
take a look at what you becon
look at what your causing
the world is in play but you keep pausing
you force destruction on others
you make them feel smothered
your the one who causes shootings at school
your the one who make them feel like a fool
give us a rest
stop causing so much stress
you cause every one to loose confidence
you make everyone feel distress
you bring people down
you push them around
your the one who makes them lost
and its your life that it costs
why is all this happening to me?
how can this be
why is my life falling apart before my eyes?
i think as i try not to cry
and never let go
please...i really wanna know
why is my life falling apart
why is this happening to me?
what did i do to deserve this?
why is my life such hell
im never coming out of my shell
i hate my life
i hate this place
to everyone and everything
what does this mean?
send me a sign
help me catch up because im falling behind
whyme? why does this have to happen to me?what did i dpo to deserve this? what important thing did i miss?!
wilted flowers so pale and dead,
life is a sacrifice with nothing left,
misery and sorrow has left nothing for tommorrow,
guide me through the dark winding path,
and let everyone feel my wrath,
tie will pass none the less,
so why wont this stress?
god it is boring rite now!!!
omg!!i came home this afternoon afterschool and there were a huge swarms of honey bees in our back yard and in our house thats why im typing this at 11:42 at nite!! most of them are gone thank god!!!
aparently were not the only ones having this problem!!there are lotz of people well anywayz im gointo bed i have to get up early were leaving to go to the orielly spring nationals in houston...at 6 am!!! i just got home from work!! n they r making me get up at like 5 am!!! on a saturday!!!!!!
my life is falling apart....every thing i care about and look 4 ward 2 is being taken away from me all of a sudden...well i dont have a life rite now so never mind!!!
I NEED A REASON...
tears fill my eyes
i want to cry
my weakness shows from within
where have i been?
my life has becoe nothing
i need it to be something
theres no point in waking up
this is all happening so abrupt!!
cant take it
not gonna make it
so stop faking it
stop this shit!!
the darkness is getting stronger
cant hold on any longer
live life while its good
and let your self be understood
my life is become nothing
i need it to be something
i need a reason to wake up in the morning
tell the rain to stop pouring
just let me change the channel in my life
i need a reason to strive
to stay alive
i need a reason......