My life is Lost in its own personal confusion, Why people care, if they care, sarrow in torment trouble my body, will people ever understand me, will they even see me for who i'am, i always have to change, become someone i'am not instead of staying who i'am... i will never know, what i mean to someone, i've been hidden and set aside for people who can't even make the right choises, its like a plauge, love is the painful feeling i have ever know and maybe will ever feel. I'am a sleeping lion.. who needs the voice of a soft spoken amasing women to wake me from this depressing slumber, so cold but yet i'am still alive, not knowing if i'am dreaming when my eyes are or open, not awake when my eyes are clsoed.
Of all the things i've seen in my 19 years of living.. the thing that kills me the most is being negected by a girl that says she cares about me... sometimes i feel like i live a hopeless dream of one day finding someone... I'am not a pawn to be used... or a joker to be cast aside.. i'am a human to and i expect everyone to see me as one.. I'am not perfect by anymeans... I'am who I'am and i will not change for anyone no matter what... take me for who i'am or cast me back in the shadows
Once apon a time ago a man living in the shadows... saw things casted before him, he couldn't figure out why he did... it troubled him to see it when he did... till one day he gathered all of what he saw into one though... the more he thought the more he knew... his path was set for him he just didn't know it would work out...
why does it seem the more i try and hide my flaws of my past it always eems they find a bitter sweet way of showing there glimmer in my life to tear me down? i want to know some days it just feels so wrong but yet so right
~The Harder The Conflict... The More Glarious The Triumph